The Ambassador's Suite

by T'Sia
Sa/Am, NC-17 (MA)

Summary: A Vulcan Ambassador and an intoxicated human woman claim the same hotel suite  - can this go over well?

Disclaimer:
Paramount owns the characters. I only play with them.

Notes : Thanks to Saidicam for the comments and encouragement to post and thanks to Selek for his excellent beta-skills.

This is also my first NC-17 with explicit scenes...soooo... I'm a bit nervous about posting <sheepish grin> This story was supposed to be one hot scene so please don't expect any major plot development ;)

WARNING: This story contains explicit sex-scenes.  If this is not your cup of tea - don't read.
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"What do you mean there is no room available?" Amanda asked, drumming her fingers on the counter. Her patience was running out quickly. What did that guy mean by 'no suites available'? Michael would be here soon and she wanted to prepare the room before he arrived. The room and... herself. She blushed with the thought but the nervous expression of the concierge behind the counter chased away all pleasant feelings.  

"Look, this must be a mistake. My name is Amanda Grayson and I booked a room for this weekend."  She rummaged around in her bag and took out a piece of real paper and placed it on the desk. "Here, I made a reservation," she said and looked hopefully at the man behind the counter. Now he had to understand. 

The front desk clerk shrugged apologetically. "I am sorry Ms. Grayson. There has been a fire in another hotel so we had to take some of their guests whose rooms were destroyed. Some of those guests are important politicians and diplomats who are attending a conference."

Amanda raised an eyebrow. "So what? Does this entitle them to take rooms that are already occupied? Why can't they go to another hotel?" 

"The other hotels are booked up due to the conference, Ms Grayson. I regret but I have to execute the directives of the hotel management," the desk clerk answered.

Amanda's shoulders slumped. Her hopes to get the booked room dissolved and mentally she already saw the plans for the weekend crashing. All for nothing. The preparations, the money. "And I'm one of those unimportant guests who will be forced to give up their room for one of them, right?" she concluded. "You can't do that."

 "Let me assure you Ms. Grayson, we deeply regret this inconvenience. We will of course refund the money. You also have the opportunity to take a coupon and ..."

Amanda waved him off. "Yes, I am sure you do regret this," she said. She wasn't in the mood for hollow phrases now. The truth was that nobody gave a damn about her plans. This guy would work until his shift's end and then he'd go home or meet with his girlfriend.  "Neither your apologies nor your coupons are finding me a place to sleep or replace the precious time I had to sacrifice for getting this weekend off. So kindly keep your regrets to yourself," she spat, needing someone to blame her anger on. She knew she was being unfair for he was not responsible for the fire in the other hotel or for the decision to give her room away. Hell, she didn't even know if he had a girlfriend. But her disappointment was so great that she didn't care who was responsible.

The corners of the clerk's mouth sagged in disapproval at her tone of voice but he caught himself and restored his excusatory stance. He opened his mouth to speak but was interrupted by Amanda's chiming communicator. 

With dismay she noticed the clerk instantly used the opportunity to turn his attention to another guest while she reached into her bag to retrieve the communicator. He didn't seem to have much luck with the next customer either for Amanda had to put one hand over her free ear to hear who was calling when the next guest started his ranting tirade upon being denied his room. She stepped away from the counter to get out of the range of the loud voice and made her way through the mass of upset guests who had arrived with the recent shuttle. "Hello?" she almost yelled into the phone.

"Amanda? Is that you?" a male voice asked.

Amanda frowned when she recognized the voice. "Michael? Of course it's me. You dialled my number, remember," she said impatiently and was sorry the instant she had spoken the words. Michael was not responsible for her problem. Damn, she wished she could find someone who could be made responsible. Thoughts of speaking to the manager of the hotel crossed her mind when she remembered she was still speaking to Michael. "Why are you calling, Michael? Where are you?"

In his office Michael played with a pen while trying to find a way to break the news to the woman at the other end of the connection. She was waiting for him and expected him to arrive any minute now. He really should have told her earlier, he scolded himself. He should have told her many things earlier, his conscience added. He swallowed dryly. Amanda didn't have the slightest idea. How could he ever explain ... ?

"Michael?"

"Uh, I am in my office, actually," he answered quickly and was silently glad about the fact that Amanda's mobile device allowed audio transmission only. Nevertheless he cringed in forecast of her reaction.

"You are where?!" Amanda's voice said louder than necessary, not disappointing his expectations. He briefly wondered if she had not heard him through the background noise but the chances for that were rather low. He tried nevertheless.

"In my office, dear" he repeated, feigning innocence. He also raised his voice as if to drown out the background noise he heard from the hotel lobby. What was going on there? Damn, how could he prevent her from making a scene? "Look honey, it seems I won't make it this evening. But maybe we can go another time."

"What?!" Now Michael was sure Amanda's tone of voice was not due to the racket surrounding her. "Michael, are you out of your mind? I booked this suite months ago. We planned the trip. What makes you think it could be postponed that easily?"

Michael fidgeted with the pen and dropped it. It clattered to the ground and he hastily reached for it, trying to come up with a good explanation for messing up Amanda's plans. "Look sweetheart, I got an unexpected load of work. Of course I will compensate for the loss of credits." For a moment only the background noise could be heard. "Amanda?"

Her voice didn't sound angry any more, just defeated when she answered this time. "Do you really think money is worrying me now? You promised me, Michael. We are both working so hard that we barely have time for each other. Do you even remember the last time we spend a weekend together?" She didn't give him time to remember and continued, "Besides, as you know you're not the only one who has business to attend to. I interrupted my project for what should have been a relaxing weekend for both of us. I was looking forward to it for quite some time."

Michael sighed, her sadness eating at him. Uncertainty showed in his features and real regret tinged his voice when he said, "I'm sorry, honey. I will make it up to you. I promise." He noticed the finely manicured hand appearing in the range of his vision, heading steadily for the console to interrupt the call. "I will call you later, Amanda," he said before the slender finger with the bright red nail polish pressed the 'off' button.

 

--- Part 2 ---

 

"Now that wasn't so bad, was it?" a female voice sounded from beside him.

When he didn't answer he felt hands on his shoulders, kneading his cramping muscles.  "She's upset. And she will be even more so if she finds out the real reason for me messing up her plans," Michael said and stared blindly at the desk.

"Don't worry, dear. She'll not hear it from me. That's your job," the female voice said close to his ear now. Sharp teeth nibbled on his earlobe. Still he didn't react. He turned his chair to look at the tall slender woman clad in a skin tight red dress, her black straight hair framing her face. She crossed her arms in front of her chest when she saw his uncertain expression and sighed exasperatedly. "You look pitiful, Michael." she said and walked over to the mini bar to pour herself a drink. "Really, you should develop some sense of confidence and tell her clearly it's over," she said and turned when she had finished preparing her drink. She tapped the long polished nail of her index finger against the glass she held. "One would almost think you regret what is between us."

"No, I don't." Michael got up and paced. "I mean. it's not as easy as you make it sound, Simone," he answered, running his hands through his thinning hair. He stopped in front of the window that overlooked the city of
New Rome located on the third planet of the Beta Centaury system. Three moons shone down on the city and the serene bay, illuminating the other side of the deep canyon that the town was snugly nestled in. Somewhere on the other side Amanda was waiting for him - and he was cheating on her. 

He heard the high heels of Simone's shoes clicking on the parquet when she approached him. The physical difference to Amanda made it easier for him to focus just on her when he saw her reflection approaching in the window.  Tall and meagre, with her straight jet black long hair she was the exact opposite of Amanda's petite curvaceous built and her short hairstyle. Damn! There he was comparing them again. In order to forget about Amanda he focussed on Simone's hips that swayed with each of her steps. His gaze travelled down her long legs, remembering how it felt when those legs wrapped around him tightly while he...  He suppressed the thought and closed his eyes. But like a traitor his mind's eye continued the picture of Simone approaching like a cat. The high clipped sounds of her shoes ceased when she stopped closely behind him. He started when she touched his back and ran her hands along his ribcage to stroke his chest. She pressed against him and he could feel her taut nipples nudging his back while her hand began a resolute journey down his body. He swallowed dryly and Amanda's image blurred when his desire for Simone grew. He took her hands and kissed them, then he turned to her and she framed his face with her hands. The touch of her lips made him forget everything else. The kiss grew more passionate and he ran his hands over her body, backing her up against his desk. He lifted her easily and sat her on the smooth surface. Then his hands travelled under her skirt and up her thighs. Simone just smiled and leaned back, amused by the hunger in his eyes.

Michael flinched when the com unit beside them chimed. Simone just looked at the flashing light and then her gaze switched to Michael. Noticing his impatient expression and the rasping sound of his breath she decided to torture him and pressed the receive button. There was nothing more fun than seeing him struggling with his excitement when being unable to release it. "Yes?" she asked as if to give her panting partner some more time to recover, but well knowing her husky tone of voice just made it even more difficult for Michael to concentrate on anything else than his desire for her.

For a brief moment only bits of a heated discussion could be heard through the com link. "Who's there?" a female voice finally asked.

Simone blinked when hearing Amanda's voice and then her mouth set into a predatory smile. She shrugged at Michael when she saw his panicked expression and crossed her arms in front of her chest. "Well, seems the cat is out of the bag. Now is as good a time to tell her as any other," she said innocently.

"Tell me what?" Amanda's disembodied voice said. "What the hell.? Who are you?"

Michael swallowed and tried to give his voice a normal sound. "Amanda? Look I'm just in an important talk with my assistant," he answered, still a little out of breath. Simone rolled her eyes. 'Coward,' she mouthed to Michael who gave her the death stare.

"Assistant, important talks - I see," Amanda repeated, her voice devoid of emotion.

Michael was not sure what to make of her tone and laughed nervously. "Yes, I need help with all that work." 'Damn', he thought, knowing his explanation was more than thin. Why did she have to call back anyway?

Silence answered from the other side but he could almost hear understanding dawning until he heard Amanda taking a deep breath. "Sure. You poor dear, working so hard," she said, her voice tinged with sarcasm. "Well, in case she isn't your new fitness trainer who's chasing you around your desk, I know only one kind of 'work' that is so straining that you have to pant as if running a marathon."

"Amanda, please let me explain. It's not what you think." Michael started but Amanda interrupted him.

"Oh, shut up, Michael and don't add insult to injury! How stupid do you think I am? Not what you think," she mockingly imitated him. "I thought you were smarter than that, trying to come up with such a standard phrase? Besides, how can you possibly know what I think now?" she asked her voice unsteady when grief about the betrayal overshadowed her initial ire. "How can you have the slightest idea?"

"Amanda, please listen. Why don't you let me explain." Michael tried again but a low hiss interrupted him.

"Explain?" Amanda asked incredulously and her words hung in the air like impending thunder after a lightning stroke. "You don't need to explain anything to me anymore. Go to hell, Michael. Oh, and don't forget to invite that 'assistant' of yours over. As far as I am concerned the two of you may roast forever united."

"Amanda," Michael began again but the connection was cut, this time from Amanda's side.  "No, you don't hang up on me!" he yelled and slammed his fist on the desk. How he hated when she did that!

Simone shook her hand as if she'd burned it. "Whew, quite a spitfire, isn't she?" She awaited an answer but Michael just stared at the com unit. Amanda's hurt affected him. But hell, if she hadn't called back she wouldn't know! Why didn't she leave him alone? He had told her he was working! The thoughts didn't help much and he was still angry that she had cut the connection. When he extended a hand to reroute the call Simone slung her arms around his neck, sliding closer.

"Don't worry, darling.  Forget her. I think we just got her blessings," she said and smiled.

Michael stared a moment without really seeing her, irritation evident in his eyes. His mind was still with Amanda. How dare she hang up on him? They couldn't part like that - they just couldn't. He loosened Simone's arms and left the office without another word.

 

--- Part 3 ---

Amanda closed the communicator and only barely resisted the urge to throw it in the large aquarium beside her. For a second she pondered the idea to drop it and crush it under her feet, but grief drowned out her fury. 'That bastard,' she thought. 'I'm so stupid. I book a room, make arrangements for a romantic weekend and he's going at it with another in his office!' Tears burned in her eyes and she closed them for a moment.  Self pity and fury were battling inside her. When one of the feelings got the upper hand she looked up and her features froze in a determined expression. That guy was having fun? Fine! She was going to have fun also! She'd have a ball!

She firmly grabbed her suitcase and saw her fortitude drown in the mass of people fighting with the hotel staff to get their rooms. While she hesitated to plan her next move the elevator to the upper levels arrived. People were filing out and a new group of guests boarded the car. 'Now or never,' she thought and queued for entering the elevator. The lobby was so crowded with chaos that no one would notice if she slipped in and went to the upper levels to re-conquer her room from whomever it had been given to. She would *not* travel the entire way back to New Atlantica or search for another hotel - the latter option impossible anyway with the conference taking place and most of the hotels being booked up. She smiled, self assured, and slipped inside the elevator car with a group of other guests who politely smiled back at her - except for the Vulcan standing in the corner.

She breathed a sigh of relief when the lift door closed without the hotel staff noticing she didn't have a valid ID to go up to the suites. This hotel had been Michael's idea and he had told her the suite was located on the top floor and so she exited the lift on the top level. With relief she noticed the floor had only one suite directly ahead and she set off to claim it. She didn't see the Vulcan from the elevator following her. Several bell boys were just leaving after having brought luggage into the spacious room and Amanda smiled and gave them their tip. Then she waved them off and walked into the suite as if she owned the place.

"Excuse me, T'sai," a male voice said from behind. 

She jumped lightly and turned back to the corridor. With surprise she saw that the man who was speaking to her was the Vulcan she had seen in the elevator. He had been so quiet during the ride that she didn't notice he hadn't left the car on one of the other floors. So this must be the guy who wanted to have *her* room. How dare he? She scrutinized the Vulcan. He was tall with distinctive features, wearing a floor-length, dark grey robe and a matching outer cape. His gleaming black hair lay smooth against his head and his brown eyes studied her with interest. He was quite attractive she had to admit but the shock about being betrayed by Michael still sat too deep to think of any man in a positive way. 'Showtime,' she thought grimly and walked back to the entrance.  "Yes?" she answered and focussed the Vulcan with a hard stare. "What can I do for you?"

"T'sai, I regret to inform you that this is the ambassador's suite," the Vulcan said calmly, obviously not the least bit impressed by her commanding tone.

Amanda resisted the urge to scoff. Of course this was the 'Ambassador Suite'. She knew it because she had booked it. Same room name was to read on the shiny panel on the wall near the door too. Was this Vulcan dense or unable to read? She nodded carefully. "I know that. So what?" she answered, crossing her arms in front of her chest.

"This room is already occupied, T'sai. I must ask you to leave," the Vulcan replied with a pleasant voice.

'Polite even when trying to boot someone out,' Amanda thought. Just what she needed right now - people being nice and polite. "You are right," she answered. Did the Vulcan's face look a tad relieved? 'Now you just wait,' she thought and relished the anticipation she felt upon preparing her counter strike. "And you are wrong," she added, noticing an almost imperceptible frown crease the Vulcan's forehead. 'You didn't see that one coming did you?' she thought with an evil mental snicker.

"I do not understand."

'He *is* dense,' Amanda reached a mental conclusion. "Okay. Let me explain then. You are right. This room is already occupied," she said and tapped herself on the chest. "It is occupied by me. You are wrong to assume I will leave. I do not care who you are or why you think you can take this room away from me. I booked it long before your hotel burned down. The one who will leave and find himself another room is not me but you," she added, her finger now pointing at him.

The Vulcan frowned openly. "I do have a room, T'sai. However." he began but Amanda interrupted him.

"Great!" she exclaimed, her patience finally drained. Why wasn't he just going then?! "In this case you'd better do us both a favour and retreat to it." Her gaze fell on the key card the Vulcan held loosely in his hand. "Is that the key card to your room?" she asked. The Vulcan looked down briefly, confused about the sudden change in topic. 

"Negative," he said. "This is the key card for this room. T'sai, I must ..."

"Go to my own room now," Amanda finished for him and quickly snatched the key card out of the surprised Vulcan's hand. She dropped it into her cleavage to bar the Vulcan effectively from a possible attempt to retrieve the card. "Tell whoever intends to reside here that this is *my* room and I will not leave. This is my last word on it," she said and slammed the door shut, leaving the puzzled Vulcan standing in the corridor. She peeked through the spy hole in the door. 'Eat this,' she thought when the Vulcan remained standing in front of the door a second longer. 

 

--- Part 4 ---

 

Soran stared at the closed door. This had not gone well and he wished once more that he possessed Sarek's negotiation skills. But he was grateful he had decided to inspect the room before Sarek returned, otherwise he would not even be aware there were problems with another guest claiming the suite. But the woman's presence was not only an inconvenience but also a severe problem. Sarek would not be pleased by this unexpected turn of events, especially not in his current condition. The woman was acting most illogically. She had to leave before Sarek arrived.

He briefly thought about his friend walking the streets of New Rome right now, his protection a robe with a large hood to mask his identity. He had tried to reason with Sarek and make him accept a guard. But his friend's condition had so worsened during the trip that adding the stress caused by the fire in the other hotel had led to him being unable to tolerate other males without extensive meditation beforehand. So he had explicitly demanded to go walking alone. Unable to bear the unprotected state of his friend Soran had, however, acted against Sarek's wishes and had secretly ordered a guard to follow the ambassador at an adequate distance. He knew it was vital Sarek was left alone as best as possible for the time being and his fragile controls not be strained further, but it would have been a serious negligence if Soran had let him go unprotected. He could only hope the guard was discreet enough to remain undetected by Sarek. Determined to immediately take care of the issue with the woman, Soran turned and called for the elevator.  

~*~

When the Vulcan had disappeared from view Amanda sighed with relief. She briefly wondered whether the Vulcan would return with security and remove her from the suite. But with all the chaos he would need a lot of good fortune to find anyone to help him. She decided to forget about him for the time being and turned to survey the room.

"This is called the 'Ambassador Suite'?" she asked loudly when she noticed the suite was actually one large room with ostentatious furniture and a king size bed. "I paid how much for this?" She quickly interrupted her thoughts before feeling sorry for the loss of credits. "At least there's no roaches ... yet!" she exclaimed and laughed at her own joke. She sobered and wiped a tear off her cheek that had escaped her controls. She didn't want to cry. Not for *him*! But nevertheless her sight went blurry when her gaze fell on the broad bed she had hoped to occupy with Michael. Since this hotel and suite had been his idea she wondered how many women had shared that bed with him already. The thought left a bitter taste in her mouth and she pushed it out of her awareness.

She had to spend the night in the city anyway before catching a shuttle back to New Atlantica the next day. For now she would forget about Michael - that jerk. 'I hope he hits his knees on his desk,' she thought and a smirk tugged at her mouth. Determined to have as pleasant a night as possible she let out an exasperated sigh and ordered the champagne and strawberries - as had been planned before. Then she went into the spacious bathroom where a great Jacuzzi was set into one corner, surrounded by a slanted glass cylinder that held water plants and exotically-coloured fish. She smiled and watched the small animals in the tanks while the tub filled with water. 

Shortly after, the doorbell chimed and she returned to the main door. Peeking through the spy hole she made sure the Vulcan was nowhere to be seen in the corridor. She smiled satisfied when she noticed that at least room service had been unaffected by the chaos so far. Then she opened and accepted the small cart with cooled champagne and strawberries. Rolling everything into the bathroom she shed her clothes and sank into the warm soothing water, turning the jets on to gently massage her body. She ignored the glasses standing beside the cooling unit and grabbed the bottle of champagne instead.

"To you Michael," she said sarcastically and took a generous sip, almost choking on the foam shooting out of the bottle. She giggled when the cold and tickling bubbles ran down her chin and over her neck to mingle with the swirling water of her bath. She popped a strawberry into her mouth afterwards. Adjusting the music controls she ordered a classical piece from the computer and leaned back in the tub. Pretending to be comfortable she ignored the tears that slipped down her cheeks to disappear in the sea of bubbles surrounding her. She didn't hear the door to the suite being opened half an hour later.

 

--- Part 5 ---

Sarek waited impatiently for the concierge to open the door to his suite. His face didn't reveal any of his inner turmoil but his fingers twitched occasionally. The young man fumbled with the door lock and Sarek's irritation grew. The muscles in his jaw began to work and he had to clasp his hands behind his back to keep himself from shoving the young man aside and opening the door himself. He ran through a series of mantras that were supposed to calm his thoughts and ease the aggression, but while he repeated them his negative emotions found a way through. 

He wondered if it had been the correct decision to take on this mission, but he had felt adequately well when leaving Vulcan. He had not expected his condition would worsen again. But his assumptions had proven to be false. Leaving Vulcan so soon after his first pon farr had probably been a mistake. 'After an unresolved pon farr,' an angry voice inside him added and his thoughts slipped back to his wife - no, his ex-wife - who had broken the time of mating after he was out of immediate danger. He did not know why T'Rea had done this and could also only speculate about her reasons to terminate their bonding afterwards. She had just made those decisions after he was out of immediate danger, leaving him not with a lethal but very uncomfortable situation. He realised that he had deemed himself out of danger too soon - but now it was too late and he had to deal with the aftermath of a broken pon farr. But what if the blood-fever returned full force? A mixture of despair and anger coursed through him and he had to redirect his thoughts. Those musings were unproductive. Besides, the healer who accompanied the delegation would make sure that this would not happen. The thought relaxed him somewhat and he remembered the healer's advice and concentrated on the task at hand.

But the current situation didn't offer any solitude either. First he had had to change the hotel due to the fire shortly after his arrival - the sight of the flames being a painful reminder of the mixture of heat and lust that had burned inside him only days ago, the embers always ready to roar up into flames again. Then the new hotel had been unable to provide quarters for all of his delegation - only Soran and a couple of guards had been granted rooms. The remaining party had been sent to yet another hotel. Having felt aggression about the inconveniences growing unbearable he had decided to take a walk to calm his agitated thoughts. Fortunately the side roads had been mostly deserted and the night air was cool and refreshing. But nevertheless the walk did not alleviate his condition for the presence of the guard Soran had sent after him disturbed him greatly and only increased his agitation. Soran had meant well but he would have to be admonished for disobeying a direct order. After the walk he returned to the new hotel only to find the lobby drowning in chaos and the receptionists unable to find the second key card for the suite. He had been informed that his aide had been given the first key but Soran was nowhere to be found either. So the concierge had to accompany him to the suite to open it with the master key. And now this nirak was too clumsy to open that door! His inner rant had become louder and louder and he closed his eyes as if he could thus shut out the negative feelings. His behaviour was unacceptable. He concentrated on letting the anger flow out of his body when he exhaled. He had to perform the exercise three times before the concierge had finally opened the door.

"Here you go, sir," the man said, obviously relieved. He stepped back when Sarek swept past him into the room. He waited a bit longer and the Vulcan turned. 

For a moment the gazes of the two men locked. Sarek's control snapped. 'Rival, kill him,' whispered the voice in his head. He narrowed his eyes, measuring the distance to the other man. He could reach him with three large steps ... He wouldn't even know what hit him. Sarek's muscles flexed and he moved. 

The young man in the corridor swallowed nervously and couldn't shake off the feeling that he was targeted in. 'Knock it off,' he told himself silently. 'That's a Vulcan, he wouldn't ... '

The Vulcan seemed to move as quickly as lightning and ...  WHAMM! The door flew shut and the rush of air ruffled the young man's hair. For a moment he remained standing in front of the door - completely stunned. What was up with that guy? He had looked as if he would kill him. Okay, he had been clumsy with the keys but this was his first day and ultimate bedlam had consumed the hotel. He had to deal with and to apologise to countless guests whose rooms had been given to the conference delegates. On top of that, he had been asked to show the ambassador to his room after he had embarrassed himself and the hotel in front of this same man when he couldn't find the keys. 

The conscierge chewed his bottom lip. This behaviour was extremely attypical for a Vulcan. Had he done something offensive? No, he remembered. Nothing that couldn't be explained with the stress of his first day at work. Besides, the Vulcan had seemed tense in the lobby already. Maybe he was ill ... or insane. It was said that Vulcans could do strange things with their minds. He swallowed again and felt the urge to leave immediately but his gaze focussed on the master key that was still in the keycard slot. He'd had no opportunity to retrieve it, yet. When the light in the suite was switched on he could see a dark shadow by the door -  and felt extremely watched. What if that guy was really crazy and was about to change his mind and come out and get him? With a shivering hand he reached for the key and the swooshing sound when the keycard slid out of the lock seemed to echo back in the empty hall. His gaze returned to the door and he saw the shadow broaden as if the Vulcan came closer. The human's instincts screamed retreat and he whirled and fled down the corridor to the staircase, not bothering to wait for an elevator. 

 

--- Part 6 ---

Sarek heard movement at the door and again hot fury shot through him. 'Rival! Kalifee!' whispered his blood. He shook his head. This was impossible. He had endured pon farr. There was no female to defend. Nevertheless, he still shivered violently from his recent outburst. The young man outside had no idea how close he had come to death. Sarek knew now that he shouldn't be here. If only the other delegates had not explicitly demanded his presence he could have stayed on Vulcan. He frowned when he realized this wasn't the whole reason he had agreed to the voyage. The truth was he didn't wish to stay on Vulcan. He had almost acted as if fleeing from the situation of a sudden severance of pon farr and divorce. It had all come too quickly to be dealt with in his current condition. But where had his hasty actions taken him? What had he almost done to that man? He had lost control. Only in the last second his cultural training had kicked in while reason fought with instinct and he had slammed the door instead of crushing the other male's skull. He breathed deeply and shook his head violently when an offending odour hit his nostrils. His sharpened senses during pon farr allowed him to smell the human male despite the door and space between them. The pure presence of him meant provocation. 

He had only barely refrained from attacking the guard following him through the streets but this was too much. His hand reached for the door handle and everything blurred in a green haze of hatred when he pulled the door open quickly. The corridor was empty; the door to the staircase was slowly falling shut. Suddenly satisfied by the mere fact that the other male had disappeared Sarek closed the door. He leaned heavily against it and desperately tried to hold on to the fragile shreds of control the man's absence had given back to him. He needed to calm himself, needed to rid himself of that nagging and scorching feeling inside. He felt too agitated to meditate, though. The urge to either destroy something or to relieve the pressure in another way was almost unbearable. For an instant he pondered the latter option and the thought of him touching himself gained an immediate response from his body. He suppressed the thought. This was not like him. But the pressure remained.

His thoughts returned to T'Rea. She might have saved his life but it would not be easy for him to endure until the flames eased off. The thoughts of her having abandoned him pushed aside the sexual excitement and replaced it with anger. Sarek moved further into the room and shed his outer robe. The cloth was heavy from rain, as were his thoughts. During the journey he had still felt his emotions boiling beneath a thin layer of control that only extensive hours of meditation had been able to provide. Even now, that fragile control had failed him. He had almost killed an innocent man. He wrung the cloth of the robe in his hands and wished he had taken Soran's advice and refused the assignment. It had not been wise to accept it in his fragile physical and mental condition that made control of his emotions a torture. 

Again he ached to relieve himself of the pressure he felt but that was not an option for him - not now. He was out of danger so the physical urges should be suppressed. Why had she left him? A fresh flood of rage and hurt coursed through him and the cloth in his hands tore. Consciously he loosened his grip on the material. The muscles in his jaw twitched and his teeth rattled with the difficulty of controlling his ire. He must consult the healer in the morning. Attending the talks was impossible in his current condition. The decision made, his gaze focused on his luggage neatly lined against the wall. Just one suitcase disturbed the picture. It stood obviously misplaced and aside from the others. He approached it and narrowed his eyes. This suitcase didn't belong to him. Couldn't they do anything right in this hotel ... on this planet?! First the trouble with the rooms, then the chaos with the key cards, then this idiot almost failing to open the door - and now they had placed another guest's suitcase in his room!

The flames of his fury roared up. And where was Soran?! He paced the room until the movement eased his anger. When the rushing sound of blood in his ears grew faint he became aware of another noise. Tilting his head he listened carefully and traced the sound to the bathroom door. He recognized the soft piano tunes of a Terran classical piece. But he didn't want music! He wanted silence! Annoyed he pushed open the door and came to a dead stop on the threshold when he saw the human female lying in the spacious bathtub.

 

--- Part 7 ---

His former agitation was blown away by her presence and he watched her, unable to tear his gaze away from her. Her eyes were closed and she seemed to be asleep. Sarek's gaze travelled lower to the champagne bottle lying between her breasts, one slender hand resting atop it. Unbidden his gaze slid from the bottle, as if his eyes were unable to find a hold on the smooth glass, and glided down to rest on the soft mound of the woman's left breast. Fascinated, he watched the areola dipping in the soft foam that covered the waters surface, emerging and disappearing with each deep breath the woman took. 

Staring at her breast Sarek felt his pulse quicken. He grabbed the doorframe and it creaked in his grip. Anger returned. His lack of control was disgusting! And what was this female doing in here? She had to go away! He marched into the room and turned off the music. The breeze caused by his rapid movement rippled over the surface of the bath water and caused the nipple of the woman's breast to stiffen with the change in temperature. His gaze glued to the exposed flesh; once again Sarek felt an immediate response of his own body. The woman's eyelids fluttered open and she tried to focus him in.

"Didn'I say I wouldn't leave?" she slurred. Then her gaze seemed to focus a bit more. "Hey, you aren't the guy from ... from," she stammered. "No madder. Who'r you?" she asked, trying to sit up, obviously too intoxicated to care about her uncovered state. The water in the tub sloshed over the rim and splashed on Sarek's boots. "An what'r you doin' in here?"

Sarek's posture stiffened and his rage about the inebriated female residing in the bathtub drowned out the stimulation caused by her naked flesh. "I am Ambassador Sarek and this is my room. You will leave immediately," he informed her with a rough voice, not trusting his fragile controls to hold out much longer.

The woman giggled. "Ambassador. Suuure," she slurred and bent over the rim of the bathtub, looking him up and down. "Fancy dress, though," she mumbled while studying his ornate shirt and then she giggled again.

"I assure you, I stated my position correctly," Sarek answered stiffly, trying to ignore the slender line of her exposed back.

The woman smiled and lifted a hand in defeat. "Fine. 's you wish, baby. Your game ...  for now," she added then frowned.

"Who's the other guy, then?"

Sarek was confused. "Who do you mean?"

Amanda waved a hand. "Well, the other Vulcan ... with the grey robes ..." Damn, she couldn't remember his name. Had he given one?

According to her description she could only mean Soran. Sarek's nostrils falred. He knew quite well why it bothered him that she had spoken to another male but .... why had Soran not seen to it that she leave his suite before he arrived then? He added another point to the admonishing list for Soran. Outwardly he remained calm, however. "He is my aide," he supplied evenly.

Her gaze seemed to clear a bit upon hearing that and she snorted. " 'think I heard that before. Just hope for your wife he doesn't do you the." *hick* "... same service."

Sarek frowned because her remark made no sense. But the mentioning of his wife sent a stab of anger through him. "I will not tolerate this invasion into my personal matters. You are obtrusive and intoxicated. You will leave. NOW!" he said, louder than he had intended. The woman looked at him with bright blue eyes. Fascinated he noticed how much the colour resembled the oceans of her home world. To him it felt as if they were inviting him to cool himself in their blue depths. He shook with desire for her.  Desperate about being confronted with the imminent failure of his controls, he whirled and left the room.

His last words momentarily cleared the alcoholic haze in Amanda's head. "Intruding? Me?" she mumbled to herself. "Who's intruding here? Now wait. I'll show you who's gonna leave," she threatened and got out of the bathtub. She almost slipped on the wet floor but caught herself and stood on wobbly legs. Grabbing a robe and tying the belt loosely she exited the bathroom, still dizzy. Searching the room she spotted the Vulcan standing in front of the window, his fists clenched tightly at his sides. She was still too dazed to wonder about his angry posture and staggered in his direction, almost bumping into him when she reached him.  "Your room?" She laughed humourlessly. "Let me tell you something, dear. This is *my* room and if someone's gonna leave here then it's you!" she said and stumbled a step back when the Vulcan whirled to her. She saw fire roaring in his eyes before his gaze grew calm.

"I have been given this room ... " Sarek began with forced calmness.

"And I booked and paid for it long before you came," Amanda interrupted him and pointed a wavering finger in his direction to emphasize her point.

He didn't answer for a moment and just stared down at her. "You cannot stay," he then said very softly.

Amanda's eyebrows rose. "No? Watch me," she said, stifling a yawn. The stress of the day had taken its toll on her and all she wanted to do was sleep. It was probably all a dream anyway. Alcohol clouded her thoughts again and she didn't believe what she saw and neither did she expect to remember anything in the morning. A Vulcan ambassador in her room - yeah, sure. It was all a nasty, bad dream. But she had to admit the fantasy Vulcan looked pretty good with his unusual wavy hair and the brown eyes so soft and so much on fire at the same time. It was surprising what the mind could come up with when under the influence of drugs. Too bad nothing of it was real. It was just too bizarre. She went over to the large bed and barely missed one of the four poles when she flopped down on the mattress. She was asleep as soon as her head hit the pillow. 

Sarek remained rooted to the spot, flexing his hands, unsure what to do. After some moments of stunned silence he began to pace rapidly. Suddenly he stopped dead in his tracks and then grabbed his outer robe - not even realizing it was torn - and went to the door. Someone had to remove that female from this room! He watched his outstretched hand while reaching for the door handle; it was shaking badly. He needed a plan. What if someone saw him in this state? Unacceptable - he must meditate, he MUST! And then?  Then he would call someone to remove the woman. Yes, that path of action sounded satisfactory.

He turned up the temperature in the room to a comfortable level and switched off the lights. With forced calmness he went as far away from the bed as possible, took off his shoes and sat down, facing the wall. He tried to steady his swirling thoughts, but only barely surpassed the first stages of meditation. Again and again his mind would begin to twist and turn, like the funnel of a storm, picking up speed and force as time passed. The mere presence of a human female beckoned to his boiling blood. He could also hear her turning on the bed. He could hear her breathing. He could smell the bath essence and her natural scent underneath and the stimulation of the fragrances almost undid him. Impossible! He was a Vulcan! He clung to the thought like a drowning man to a lifeline and stubbornly ignored the urge of his flesh. Instead of surrendering to his passions he set his iron will on holding out long enough to be able to call someone to make her leave.

 

--- Part 8 ---

A sound disturbed Sarek when he had finally managed to meditate. He opened his eyes. The room was still mostly dark and he listened intently. Then he heard it again, the rustling of bedclothes and a soft moan. He tried to concentrate and suppress the effect of the sound that stirred recent memories, but nagging thoughts intruded his fragile cocoon of control. What if she was in pain? If so he would have to help her. Sarek shook his head, then he exhaled forcefully and rose quickly. 

As if dreading the sight he turned hesitantly and cast a look at the bed. The glow of the aquarium tanks in the bathroom shed a shimmering light on the woman. Her breathing had become more erratic by now and she writhed. As if being drawn nearer by invisible forces, Sarek approached the bed and came to stand beside it, staring down at the woman. The robe had opened wider due to her movements and the deep slit revealed her heaving chest. Her skin glistened; she was sweating. Her head lolled from side to side and she moaned again and then pushed up her chest in her sleep. Sarek watched her in fascination, instinctively knowing it was not pain that caused her reaction. He could almost physically feel the erotic mental waves she was radiating. Rationality was still close enough to let him know that what he did was shameful - he shouldn't watch her having an obviously extremely stimulating dream. But he couldn't move and stayed as if captured by her presence and being held slave by his own increasing arousal. Slowly he sank to his knees beside the bed, his breathing rhythm aligning itself to hers.

A knock on the door made his head snap up and his eyes narrowed in anger when he heard Soran's voice outside. What was he doing here? His head spun back to the human female. Was he coming for her?! Soran called again and Sarek's rage did a leap. Another male! A rival! How dare he? She was *his*! He must get rid of the male. Quickly he got up and went to the door. Opening it just a crack he squinted into the brightly lit corridor and glared at Soran, no longer seeing the friend of long years but only the rival in pursuit of  *his* woman.

~*~

Soran waited for Sarek to open the door and his concern increased when Sarek didn't answer. His odyssey to intercept Sarek before he could enter the suite had not been successful. First he had been told security was too busy with others guests to be able to remove the woman from the room, so he went to search for the Vulcan guards but couldn't find them at the location the hotel staff had indicated. After returning to the reception desk he had been very concerned upon being told that Sarek had already been show to the suite. The situation was dangerously unstable if the Terran woman was still residing in the same room. In Sarek's current condition the presence of a female could be highly disturbing to his controls and even endanger the woman's life if Sarek acted on his urges and she refused him. Sarek still needed additional sessions with the healer to overcome the remnants of a broken pon farr. 

Soran permitted himself the emotion of relief when he saw Sarek answering the door. His friend looked tired and squinted into the corridor, his nictating membranes reflecting the light to protect his eyes. Soran was a bit surprised to see this reaction. Usually the Vulcan eye adapted very quickly to changes of light intensity. Maybe Sarek had been asleep already? The focus of his ponderings interrupted the creation of further theories. 

"What is it?" Sarek demanded lowly.

"I ask forgiveness for disturbing you, my friend; however, there was an unauthorized visitor in your room. I asked her to leave but she would not comply," Soran said.

Sarek's mood darkened. So Soran had indeed spoken with the woman - with *his* woman. He thought about taking revenge in a quick fight but the rustling of bedclothes in the room behind him redirected his thoughts. "She is not here," he lied to Soran.

Soran looked surprised. "Indeed? She did not seem to be willing to leave voluntarily when I asked her to. I wonder what had made her change her mind."

"This is none of you business. Leave me alone. I have to meditate," Sarek answered brusquely and shut the door.

Soran was a bit taken aback by this rude behaviour, but he reminded himself that Sarek's agitation was to be expected after the recent trouble. He only hoped the healer could alleviate his symptoms until the talks started. Otherwise he would need a good reason to cancel them, one that satisfied the other delegates and that didn't violate Sarek's privacy. A participation in the talks in his condition was out of the question. An unresolved pon farr could become dangerous to the point of the male falling back into the blood fever if not treated properly. Of course the return of the fever could only happen when an adequate stimulation was applied. Since Sarek was able to establish enough control to speak to him it seemed that the woman was gone and thus there was no cause for stimulation. So the security service of the hotel was better than he had initially thought. But Sarek's mental condition had still to be attended to. Soran returned to his room but made a mental note to contact the healer as soon as possible.

 

--- Part 9 ---

Sarek remained standing at the door, his gaze glued to the spy hole that showed the other male in the corridor. His cramped muscles relaxed when the male left. He turned swiftly and returned to the bed, his gaze focussed on the woman like a predator stalking its prey. He sank to his knees beside her again and watched with glistening eyes. Her movements had increased and she gripped the sheets and sighed deeply. 

The sound echoed through him and the vibrations seemed to directly centre in his groin, tickling and stimulating him. Heat roared up from between his legs and he allowed it, allowed the blood to be pumped into his genitals. The pressure he felt when they pressed against the confines of his pants was exquisite. He reached out with quivering hands. He must touch her now. He opened the belt of the woman's robe, all inhibitions forgotten. He didn't care that she was a stranger, he didn't care that he was acting shamefully. He was a male, she was a female. All that mattered was her and the increasing pressure and urgency in his body. The mantras the healer had taught him to control his lust were forgotten. His breath quickened and his pupils dilated until even the pale light from the bathroom seemed to draw bright unstable patterns over her body as if she were glowing from inside.

When she moved again, the robe slid from her body, revealing her small but firm breasts. Sweat drops glistened on her skin and the curls of her pubic hair while her breathing increased to a pant. She writhed, moaning continuously now, the sound rising in pitch and volume. Beads of sweat ran down her ribcage and Sarek extended a shaking hand and caught the moisture with his finger tips. He brought his fingers to his mouth and tasted her. He closed his eyes and a rasping sound not unlike a low growl rose in his chest when he tasted the salt of her sweat. The aroma set off a series of sharp nerve impulses that triggered recent memories of a similar taste and he sighed and spread his bent legs wider to allow his genitals to swell even tighter.

He opened his eyes and stared down at the human before him. How alien and how beautiful she was. The light brown locks were damp from sweat and clung to her head but her features were soft and delicate even when caught in a grimace of sweet agony. The thin brows over the tightly closed eyes were bunched together and her soft mouth opened when her panting increased. He must have her now, he must. He tore his shirt off, shredding the material in the process and reached for his pants to let them suffer the same fate. Not able to resist the temptation he slid his hand lower for a moment and cupped his erection. The feeling coursed through him like an electric jolt despite the cloth still covering him. Wanting more he reached lower to run his hand over his testicles and squeezed them once - hard - grunting with exquisite pain before running his hand upwards to stroke himself again. His back arched reflexively and his hips jerked forward.  The muscles in his groin constricted and he felt the first drops of pre-cum wetting his undergarments. A wave of heat rolled over him and he whimpered when his body took possession of his mind. Suddenly the woman uttered a cry and she convulsed and shuddered on the bed, her chest heaving in hard erratic breaths. 

Amanda's eyes snapped open and she felt a presence beside her. Her head jerked around and she started when she saw someone beside the bed. She took in the man's Vulcan features and thought to see Satan himself kneeling beside her. She was almost at eye level with the Vulcan's midsection and a very predominant bulge caught her attention. 'A very aroused Satan,' her fogged mind whispered in bad humour. She tore her gaze away from the obvious display of male arousal and glimpsed his face again. The Vulcan's eyes glistened brightly like those of a cat in the dark and the light from the fish tanks in the bathroom painted irregular patters over his face and bare chest. An instant later he seemed to be as startled as she was, her intense gaze having snapped him out of whatever fantasy his mind had been caught in. But as quickly as the startled gleam in his eyes had emerged, it vanished and his gaze seemed to pour raw lust over her.

Sarek felt his rationality surfacing and gasping for its last breath only to be immediately submerged again in the maelstrom of lust. "Aduna," he whispered lowly.

"What?" Amanda asked, still dazed and sat up. She stared down at him kneeling beside the bed and her vision cleared. She remembered dimly how she had spoken to this man before. What was his name? 'I must be dreaming,' she thought. A Vulcan wouldn't kneel beside her bed, half naked and very much aroused. She assessed her own body's condition and found herself sweating and her genitals swollen. Memories of her dream came back to her - a dream of this man before her, staring  at her as if frozen in time. Shame washed over her but it was drowned out by the blood rushing in her ears while she observed the Vulcan in rapt attention. He didn't move and his face was half thrown in shadows but in the light from the bathroom she could clearly see the outline of his jaw muscles that twitched occasionally. Was she still dreaming? If so it was a decidedly nice dream. Still not sure if he was real she extended a hand and tentatively touched the Vulcan's chest. His muscles twitched violently beneath her fingers and she jerked her hand back. She wasn't dreaming!

 

---  Part 10 --- 

She retreated on the bed but quickly the Vulcan grabbed her wrist. He held her gently but would not completely let her go. Both froze, he desperately trying to regain control over himself and she being torn between arousal and instinct to flee.

Amanda's thoughts raced. What was she thinking? She didn't know this man. But damn he was so good looking! No! He was a good looking *Vulcan*! What was up with him? Was he ill? Insane? Did it matter? He wanted her and she responded to him. The reason wasn't important, was it? The rapid thoughts made her blood hammer in her temples and she closed her eyes. The Vulcan slowly sat on the bed and tugged at her wrist, almost gently and she gave in a bit and shifted nearer. 

"Please," she heard his rough whisper and her eyes snapped open. Instantly the Vulcan's gaze targeted her like a phaser. He shivered and his teeth rattled as if he were cold. But the room was warm. it could only be ...  a wave of excitement rushed through Amanda. Damn, after the humiliating experience with Michael it felt so good to be wanted. Was that the reason for her not caring *why* the Vulcan wanted her? She swallowed and licked her lips. The Vulcan's eyes followed each of her movements. She remembered a name she had heard earlier. "Sarek?" she tried softly.

He closed his eyes as if savouring her voice. "Ha", he breathed in Vulcan. "It is I, t'hy'la," he continued in a mixture of Standard and his mother tongue.

She didn't know the last word but it sounded nice. Carefully she lifted her free hand to touch his face. When her fingers hovered only inches away from his skin she felt heat emanating from him and trembled, but not from cold. Suddenly his eyes snapped open and he quickly grabbed her other wrist with his free hand. The action startled her and she flinched.

That seemed to anger him and he pulled her roughly against him. Fear washed over her but it was instantly replaced by lust when their naked chests touched. The Vulcan drew a ragged breath and closed his eyes again, a soft moan escaping him. Then he flexed his fingers around her wrists and pushed her away, putting a bit of space between them. She frowned but stared at him mesmerized while he seemed to be torn between passion and reason. Right now she wasn't sure which she wanted to win out. He shivered, then opened his eyes. Out of an impulse Amanda leaned forward and gently nibbled at his chin. He jerked back as if her lips were of fire.

"No!" he commanded. "I must ... control ..." he gasped and his eyes rolled back into his head.

His grip had loosened enough so that Amanda could get one of her hands free. Concerned that he was in pain she wrapped it around the back of his head to hold him. "What is it? Are you in pain?" she asked.

His eyes opened and he looked at her with a feverish gaze. "I ... ache ... for you ... please ..." he said between gulps of air.

"For me ...," Amanda echoed. Although not knowing the cause she understood what he was implying. 'It is obvious. But you don't know him,' sounded a warning voice in her head. 'So what? You're not married .... You don't even have a lover anymore. You're free to do what you want,' answered another.

"Forgive me," the Vulcan breathed.

"Shhh," Amanda answered, her decision made. Slowly she leaned forward until their lips tentatively met. Upon the touch they both shrank back as if electrical charge had driven them apart. They both blinked in surprise and he made a move to retreat but then his right hand seemed to develop a will of its own and guided her hand he still held low. She swallowed dryly when she understood where he was heading. She watched their hands disappearing between their bodies and she nervously licked her lips and jumped when her fingers touched something hard. His hand slid over hers and laid it flat against his groin. He drew in a hissing breath and threw back his head when her hand pressed against his erection, still hidden below a layer of cloth.

Amanda felt the air rushing from her lungs; she couldn't breathe anymore. A remote thought wondered if the genital anatomy of Vulcans was similar to that of Human males but the incredible pleasure he seemed to gain just from her touch was taking her breath away. Her blood rushed in her ears, almost drowning out the sound of his harsh breathing and her hand moved on its own when she stroked up and down the front of his pants just to see him enjoying her touch. His head spun back to her and his eyes opened. Black pools stared at her while he panted - his mouth agape - and she realized for a moment that he was totally at her will. She almost smiled with the contentment the thought gave her and she gave his genitals another stroke. Curiosity returned to her and, unsatisfied with the indistinct outlines she could feel through the fabric of his pants, she carefully reached for its closure to see what she would find beneath. Her triumph was interrupted when she realized the closing mechanism was unknown to her and she couldn't open it. She swallowed nervously and detached her other hand from him to help in the effort of freeing him from the tight confines of his pants. He tried to be patient while resting his hands on her thighs and then massaging and stroking her flesh with increasing strength. His breathing became harsher and when he finally lost his patience, both of his hands were suddenly over hers and tore away the seal on his pants. Quickly he spread his legs wider and grabbed her hand to guide it roughly to his scorching flesh. He cried out when her hand met his skin. Amanda almost drew back her hand at his strong reaction but curiosity and surging desire dispelled any reservations she might have had. Gaining confidence she carefully examined the foreign contours further and began stroking him rhythmically.

Sarek reached for her hand and guided her movements. Her touch felt so good ... The heat and pressure became almost unbearable. Yes! Yes! He could feel it. The release he had suppressed was so close.  With incredible speed his hand came up and touched her face. 

Amanda gasped startled and closed her eyes in a futile attempt to block out the wave of incredibly erotic images that filled her mind at his touch. When the pictures didn't disappear she realized with a shock that he must somehow have connected with her mentally! She had heard Vulcans possessed telepathic abilities but she had never imagined a connection of minds to be this intense. At first she recoiled in fear but the sensations rolling over her wave by wave washed away resistance and trepidation. She heard moans and deep sighs, felt skin against her skin, enveloping and being enveloped. It was incredible and her mind drowned in the foreign sensations that seemed so familiar all the same. She moaned loudly and forced an echoing sound from him when her hand squeezed his flesh. Opening her eyes she zeroed in on his mouth and again slid a hand behind his head to grab his hair tightly. He remained motionless for a second and she finally pressed her lips to his, kissing him breathlessly and he responded in kind to her passionate touch. Through the haze of sensations she remotely felt her body's need for air. She tried to ignore it, not wanting the kiss to end but the feeling got more intense and she began to feel dizzy from a lack of oxygen. He didn't loosen his mouth from hers but fed on her as if drinking from a life saving well. On the verge of suffocating she bit him on the lips - hard. He yelped and growled and she felt his blood, hot and coppery in taste.

 

--- Part 11 ---

Catching their breath they stared at each other and she finally released her hold on him to shrug off the robe. His hands stroked the exposed flesh of her shoulders. Suddenly impatient he gripped both open ends of the closure of his pants and tore it wide open, shredding his undergarments in the process. Amanda stopped briefly in getting rid of her robe when his erection sprang free and his torn undergarments allowed full view of his manhood and the well-sized testicles nestled directly below. The part of her that had wondered about his anatomy earlier pushed forward and wanted to examine him further but she struggled for breath and swallowed when desire overtook her. The last conscious thought was that she didn't know this man and shouldn't do this; he was a stranger, an alien ... But all reason fled when he dragged her onto his lap and she settled herself over him. There was no time for any more kisses or fondling, both were desperate now for the joining. She swiftly reached between them and held him steady while she slowly lowered herself onto him. She felt the double ridges she had discovered earlier slide inside her and held her breath when her weight made him penetrate deeper.

She didn't seem to do it fast enough for him for he shivered and moaned, held his breath and then panted again until his hands were suddenly on her buttocks.  He held her tight when his hips jerked forward and he buried himself deeper with each quick and hard lunge. She held still and thought she'd pass out from the pleasurable sensation when she felt herself stretch and glide over him. One of his hands returned to her face and the most incredible feeling washed over her when she not felt her own body but his as well through the mental connection. Her flesh felt cool and smooth to him, enveloping his burning member inside her. The relief was only brief, though, and the pressure in his groin increased with every passing second. Everything in his behaviour radiated his need for release and she felt him squirm and swell within her. The mental connection flared and the sensations he shared intensified - the tight squeezing of her inner walls, her skin against his and finally the insuperable urge to thrust drowning out any other feeling. She heard his laboured breathing and pressed herself against him, grabbing his shoulders as she held on tight in anticipation.

Her position brought his face close to hers and his gaze locked with hers when he started thrusting into her, deep and hard, exhaling forcefully with every impact of his pelvis against hers. 

What was painful at first soon became a pleasurable heat between her legs and she leaned back her head and let him guide their movements, pressing herself against him to increase the feeling and take him fully with each thrust. The mental connection lost a bit of its intensity when he loosened his hand from her temple to grab her shoulders. He held her body angled away from his and she understood his intent when he slid one of his hands to the small of her back to support her. She leaned back to allow him deeper penetration and relished the sensation of him filling her over and over. She felt his hand stroking her face, exploring her mouth with his fingers and she caught him between her lips, biting him before allowing him to descended lower over her throat. 

Fascinated by her hammering heart rhythm that was so different from the fast, almost vibrating beat of a Vulcan heart, Sarek slid his thumb over her neck to feel the pulsing life beneath. His hand travelled lower and grasped her breasts, one after another he kneaded and stroked her flesh, tweaking and tugging her nipples, his attention focussed intently on the pitch of her moans like a musician listening to the tune of his instrument. His gaze went down further and he watched himself disappear inside her when he thrust and emerge slick and dark when he drew back. The sight spurred him on and he gave a series of quick hard strokes, forcing a high pitched cry from Amanda. He felt her inner walls constricting around him and sensed the answer from his body when his testicles tightened in anticipation. He drew her up close to him and buried his face against her shoulder, stilling his movements to ease the feeling of imminent climax. No, not yet! 

Amanda could feel his breath leaving hot wet traces on her skin when he pressed his face into the crook of her neck. She felt him tense and waited breathlessly when he stopped moving. One of her hands travelled into his hair, gripping it tightly and then massaging his scalp while the other glided over his back, nails lightly scratching over the skin. A shiver ran through him and she could feel him drawing his brows together against her neck. She bit her lip, impatient for him to start moving again. She was so close... Breathing a low impatient moan she slid against him and nibbled on the tip of his ear. She sighed contentedly when he twitched inside her and then picked up his former rhythm. Their chests slid slickly together, stimulating the sensitive nerve ends in her nipples to an almost unbearable peak. A familiar sensation settled deep within her and with each blow the heat tied up to a tighter knot. She grabbed him harder and bit her lip when she clung to him in anticipation of the release she knew would sweep over her in an instant.  

She almost didn't realize the feel of his hand back at her temple while the other still held on to her buttocks to press her firmly against him with each stroke. She gasped when he burst into her mind and she felt what he felt. The pressure in her groin seemed to increase ten fold and a cry escaped from her mouth. She felt herself clenching around him in imminent release and through the established bond she felt his body echoing the sensation when his testicles tightened in preparation for ejaculation.

Her eyes half closed Amanda stared past his shoulder while her gaze was focussed inside. In silent understanding their bodies seemed to communicate through mirroring each sensation received from the other, adding fuel to the circle of lust with each joining of their genitals. At last her eyes closed in bliss. Her expression changed to a frown that intensified until her features were drawn into a grimace of sweet agony. She drew several ragged breaths and exhaled with a deep moan when the tightness in her loosened and her whole lower body quivered in ecstatic waves that rippled out to every extremity. From the tips of her fingers to the tips of her toes, rushing right up her spine, crawling under the skin of her head, causing goose bumps to rise on her whole body, she stiffened and rolled her hips, groaning deeply.

Sarek felt her quivering around him, her hands tightening almost painfully on his back. He tried to slow his thrusts to postpone the inevitable and draw out the exquisite sensations he felt but the feeling he received through the mental connection undid him. Helplessly, he gasped in release when she stiffened and he felt her fingernails sharp and painful on his back. But the pain was pure pleasure and he grunted and bit down hard on the juncture of her neck when he felt the end of the unendurable tightness inside him. His genitals pulsated and his hips jerked against her with every spasm of his ejaculation while he pumped all the essence that had tortured him for so long into her body.

 

--- Part 12 ---

Amanda slowly opened her eyes. She still trembled from nervous overload, every nerve in her body tingling from the experience. She felt her thoughts mingle with images that were not of her mind. But what had been a fire moments ago was now a soft warm glow hovering at the threshold of her consciousness. The room was silent apart from their heavy breathing. As if emerging from a dream as before she lifted her head and stared straight ahead. What had she done? She still had her arms slung around the Vulcan and he was resting against her, holding her tight. This couldn't be true. But when she turned her head she saw the tip of a pointed ear beside her cheek. Bad enough that she did this with a man she didn't know but a Vulcan? Doing this? But it was true; it had happened. But why? She was confused and tried to disentangle herself from him. At first her limbs felt like jelly and her muscles were uncooperative but at last she was able to grab the Vulcan's shoulders and pushed at him. To her surprise his arms tightened around her and she felt his lips moving against her neck. 

"Worla trasha, ashal-veh," he murmured and his voice vibrated against her skin, stoking the embers of the recent fire inside her.

She froze momentarily, suppressing the growing heat. "Wha ... what? What did you say?" she asked with a shaky voice, surprised how weak it sounded.

//Don't leave, beloved, please ... don't leave// 

She jumped startled when the words vibrated through her mind. She couldn't even say in which language they had been spoken. She just understood. Before her mind could recoil from the intrusion she felt warmth surrounding her, soothing her fears and searching for her company. The Vulcan emphasized his mental words with a gentle bite on her shoulder and his hand trailed down her back and, as she had done before, he used his fingernails very carefully to stimulate her skin. Amanda shivered and felt goose bumps rise on her back. 

"Beloved?" she croaked. She shifted slightly to avoid his hand pleasuring her back and the movement caused her to shift her hips. Instantly she felt him tense, the muscles of his back flexing beneath her hands. He trembled and pressed against her and with a trace of alert and anticipation she felt him hardening inside her for a second time. She moved again but he held her and the stroking of his hands became more insistent while he started to trace the line of her shoulder and neck with gentle kisses.

"But … we ...  we don't know each other," she weakly protested and bit her lip to suppress a moan, trying to hold on to the last straw of reason. 'As if it weren't already too late for this,' a voice inside her remarked sarcastically. She silenced it in favour of enjoying the Vulcan's touch.

"Shhhh," he murmured and continued his way of kisses along her jaw line, slowly travelling under her chin and to her throat. Instinctively she leaned her head back a bit, but not yet ready to submit completely she didn't allow him full access. She felt his hand travel up her spine to reach into her hair. He tugged lightly until she surrendered with a deep sigh and exposed her throat to his searching lips. 

At once she felt him latch on to her and a low growl rose up from within his chest as he sucked her skin into his mouth and marked her as his. She exhaled with a hiss and her brows drew together when his touch on her throat bordered on being painful. But just when she was about to whimper, he released her flesh and she used the opportunity to slip her hands into his hair and tugged as he had done to force his head up in turn.

For a moment they gazed deep into each other's eyes. He seemed way beyond control but Amanda knew this was the last opportunity for her to break the mounting tension. Did she want to end it? She heard the nagging inner voice that told her to stop but her body certainly didn't agree. She felt waves of pleasure rising from between her legs when he shifted lightly, moving inside her. She licked her lips. What was so wrong about doing this? They were adults and free to do as they pleased. A brief thought of Michael only confirmed her determination instead of changing her mood. 'Shut up,' she told the nagging voice and ran both hands through the Vulcan's hair, enjoying the soft wavy texture.

"Yes," she breathed and captured his mouth with hers. She began the kiss passionately, dipping her tongue deep into his mouth to join with his. She felt him grab her tighter and his strength appealed to her and increased her initial arousal. When the nagging voice in her was drowned out by the touch, the taste, the feel of him she relaxed and the kiss became more sensuous until they had to let go to draw air.

For a moment they gazed at each other once again, none of them speaking, only observing. Something was different from their first joining. Amanda didn't know what it was but his eyes were much more intense this time. He didn't radiate this urgency anymore. He was rather calm, but still determined. Slowly he lifted a hand and placed it at the side of her face. She expected to feel him in her thoughts again and was surprised how little this frightened her. She almost longed for the company of his mind that bathed her in its closeness, making her feel as if she was being caressed by warm sunbeams. But he didn't establish contact, just watched his hand as it stroked back a damp lock of light brown hair. Gently, he tucked it behind her ear and as if being casually curious he tilted his head and watched his fingertips explore the rounded shell of her ear. 

Amanda closed her eyes and relished the touch. How could such a simple sensation be that erotic? She opened her eyes and carefully leaned into his hand.  She was surprised to feel how soft his palm was and felt the urge to explore his hand further. She detached him from her face and slid her other hand from his shoulder to loosely hold his hand between hers. It was heavy and almost double the size of hers and she marvelled at his skin tone that looked dark against her creamy flesh. 'How strong it is - and how gentle it can be,' she thought. She carefully examined his long graceful fingers, running the tip of her index finger over the back of his hand, fascinated by the clearly visible veins causing ridges in his skin. That reminded her of something and she playfully rolled her hips and was rewarded with a twitch of his penis inside her. He swallowed dryly and his nostrils flared. Then he calmed himself and watched, mesmerized, at how her eyes glistened through her lashes. 

"Sorry," she whispered and smiled. Continuing her exploration she ran her finger over the protruding veins and watched fascinated how they reappeared when her finger continued its journey. She turned his hand when she had reached his wrist and ran her finger up his palm back to the tip of his middle finger. She stroked each of his fingers tortuously slow and noticed with interest how he reacted when she touched his middle and index finger. Curiously the touch of these regions also intensified the glowing presence of his thoughts in her mind. She had heard about the mental bonds between Vulcan couples, but it was for life, wasn't it? A twitch of panic made her wonder if this connection could ever be loosened but a caressing tendril out of the glowing centre took away her fear. She lifted his hand to her lips and kissed his fingers. He seemed to enjoy her touch but licked his lips and shifted impatiently. The caressing mind tendril grew more intense, glowing brighter like iron being heated in a forge. The tightness in her groin intensified and she realized it was his feelings that were being transmitted over the miraculous connection.  She sighed deeply and leaned back a bit, shifting herself on his lap more solidly. She smiled softly when she saw him closing his eyes in bliss.

 

--- Part 13 ---

When he looked at her again his gaze was intense. Supporting her lower back he ran his fingers from her throat between her breasts to her navel, stroking her abdomen gently. His hand descended further and he touched her pubic hair and slipped his fingers lower until he found her clitoris. 

Although having visibly followed his journey down her body Amanda jumped when his hot fingers touched her. When her head snapped up to regard him in surprise it was him who smiled softly at her. She didn't even feel surprise about his bizarre behaviour anymore and felt herself mirroring his expression even though she thought he was getting weirder by the minute. Sitting up again she lifted a hand and carefully traced his full lips, as she had done to him before he caught her finger with his teeth and held her gently. She smiled and then replaced her finger with her lips, wrapping her arms around him. 

He relaxed upon being reassured he would not be left alone and the kiss was soft and lingering. He surprised her when he broke the kiss and slid a hand to the small of her back to support her. He came up on his knees to lower her on the bed and she held her breath when his weight shifted onto her until he supported himself with his arms. His lips started to place feathery kisses on her face, outlining its contours before he slowly travelled down to her throat, gently brushing over the spot he had marked before. Her breasts beckoned him to descend further but he seemed to realize he had to withdraw from her if he wanted to do so. He searched her eyes and she smiled gently.

Reassured that she would stay, he carefully withdrew. The air in the room although raised to almost Vulcan norm was cold on his exposed flesh and he winced and seemed to decide whether to return to her smooth and warm cocoon. A slight chuckle arose in Amanda's chest at his obvious discomfort.

"You laugh at me, woman?" he asked his voice barely more than a soft rumble.

Amanda smiled. "Never," she said teasingly. 

He was over her in an instant and pinned her arms over her head. "Don't laugh at me," he said, his eyes glistening.

Through their physical connection Amanda felt the vibrations of his voice in his chest, causing her nerves to tingle. She was confused about his dominating behaviour but some other feeling drowned out the confusion. She tried to move her arms but he held her effortlessly. Feeling her heart rate increase she bit her lower lip when a wave of excitement washed over her and she realized this time it was her who was totally at his will. The primitive display of possession triggered a hidden instinct she seemed to be defenceless against. She wanted to fight it, not to submit that easily, but his closeness and his touch intoxicated her. She felt his penis against her body, vibrating with the fast rhythm of his heart and instead of fighting him she reluctantly opened her legs and her breathing increased to a helpless pant.  "Yes," she moaned. "Please. now."

Sarek tensed above her and she felt him twitch noticeably when she begged him. His brows bunched together and he exhaled forcefully when he fought his reactions back under control. His eyes opened and he tilted his head slightly, regarding her curiously. He released her arms and smiled when she instantly gripped his back, massaging his muscles. She bit his chest and he grunted when her hands slid in his pants and grabbed his buttocks to pull him roughly against her. One hand sneaked between them and he jumped when she took hold of him to guide him back inside her. Quickly he reached down and took her hand to bring it over her head again. She sighed impatiently and bit his neck but he rose up further on his arms, detaching her from him.

"No," he commanded. "Do not touch me." He watched Amanda staring up at him in rapt attention. She obeyed and lay still. Her eyes widened when he shifted his weight and grabbed her other hand. He held her arms over her head, effectively pinning her down with his weight and immobilizing her. She panted and squirmed beneath him. That seemed to please him. He knew what she wanted and smiled slightly. "Not yet," he rumbled.

"When?" she asked, swallowing forcefully.

"When I say," he answered and emphasized his words with another gentle bite at her throat.

Amanda licked her lips. She had no explanation why this game was exciting her so much. She wasn't the submissive type and had never allowed Michael to possess her that way. It must be his rather playful than earnestly dominating manner that made this game thrilling. This Vulcan had plucked a string inside her no one else had ever touched and she wanted him too much to deny him his wish. She smiled and was rewarded with an answering twitch of his mouth. Returning to the game he peered at her with daring eyes while he loosened his grip on her hands to see if she would comply. Satisfied with seeing her grabbing the pillow instead of trying to touch him he lifted himself from her and quickly took off his pants. Settling down again he began to trail kisses and licks down her throat. He felt himself stiffen when her breasts came close to his face. He inhaled their fragrance and finally touched his tongue to the soft mound. As before the salty taste of her skin crackled along his nerves, triggering passionate memories and eliciting another anticipating twitch of his manhood. 

Amanda froze when he touched her and only the beating of her heart made the flesh of her breasts quiver with every beat. "Please," she begged again and finally he had mercy on her and took her nipple into his mouth, using his tongue to massage it against his palate. Amanda arched beneath him and he heard as well as felt the vibrations of her moan through the touch of her skin. He stroked and kissed her breast and then switched to the other, almost bringing her on the verge of screaming before he continued his journey down her body. He kissed her quivering belly and delved his tongue into her navel, watching fascinated how her whole abdomen drew in away from his touch. He repeated the action and she reacted in the same way as before, eliciting a smile from him. But the smile disappeared and was replaced by an intense expression when the first fragrance of her feminine scent wafted up to his nostrils. Staring mesmerized at her glistening pubic hair he slid lower and positioned himself between her thighs. Inhaling deeply he parted her lips carefully and touched his tongue to her clitoris. The smell and taste of her was decidedly different from a Vulcan female but nevertheless triggered the desired reaction in him. Or was it just the awareness of what he was doing? He shoved the analyzing thoughts away and chuckled inwardly at the shocked reaction of his controlled mind that briefly surfaced in the boiling sea of emotion.

Amanda jerked sharply beneath his touch and clenched the pillow in her hand. He looked up to her briefly but recognized her writhing and moaning as sign of lust rather than pain so he bent back to his task and this time took the swollen nub into his mouth, rolling and massaging it gently with his tongue. He heard Amanda moaning continuously now and the bedclothes rustled when she gripped them hard and tore at them. He stopped his ministrations and saw her brows furrowing together in frustration about not finding release when feeling it so near. 

Her legs opened wider and he watched with interest when she placed a hand between them and started stroking herself. He allowed it and occasionally kissed her fingers and her sensitive flesh in turn. Unconsciously he slid a hand down along his body and touched himself, stroking and massaging his testicles and penis while he kissed her. Soon the blood sang in his ears and his world narrowed to the place between his legs that demanded release. With a grunt he pushed her hand away and finally crawled over her. Supporting himself on corded arms only their genitals touched and she received him willingly, reaching for his throbbing penis and guiding him to her opening. He sank down on his forearms and in his haste almost thrust before being at the right place but she held him steady and released him only when he was securely positioned at her entry.

She opened her eyes and found him looking at her. He shifted his weight to one arm and his hand touched her temple. Like a bonfire his thoughts burst into her mind, dancing on a wave of passion that lapped deep into the farthest corners of her mind and body. Goosebumps rose on her skin and her breath caught in her throat when he caressed her mind with tendrils of his, wrapping himself tightly around her thoughts, not to frighten or possess her but to be as close as possible to her. She gave a sound just above a whimper and tears leaked out of her eyes at the incredible close and erotic contact. In contrast to the wild animalistic joining of the first time he now held eye contact with her when he pushed his hips forward, gently entering before reaching down and drawing one of her legs up to open her wider. Making sure she was prepared he looked down at her and when she gently pushed against him in confirmation he thrust into her with more strength until he was fully inside her. She received him with a hiss and clenched around him. 

Sarek paused briefly to catch his breath and squeezed his eyes shut, his face contorted by the effort of suppressing immediate climax. Soon he surrendered his controls in favour of pure pleasure and slipped his hands beneath her shoulders and bent his head into her neck. The slapping sound of wet flesh filled the room when their bodies came together over and over. 

Faster and faster they went and just at the moment Amanda thought she'd pass out from pleasure she felt the familiar floating feeling. She bucked up beneath him and grabbed his back hard when the muscles of her vagina began to constrict, rippling in a series of incredibly pleasuring seizures. Letting it happen she shut out the world around her and rode her climax, holding tight to her straining partner. The moment her nails dug into his flesh, Sarek lost his rhythm and tensed. He thrust deep once more before his movements smoothed out and she felt him pulsate when his hot seed was pumped inside her. He gave a low strained sound against her neck with every spasm and his hips moved reflexively before he lay still and relaxed.

 

--- Part 14 ---

For a few minutes the exhausted lovers just lay unmoving, not willing to disturb the soft glow of fainting heat between them. Sarek's breathing slowed little by little and he turned his head away to lay it flat on the pillow beside her. His thoughts were foggy and he was not able to grasp one as they flew by; the questions about the identity of the woman he had just shared bed, mind and pleasure with seemed important but he was too tired to chase after them. Rational thoughts eluded him and the issue of right and wrong seemed to be irrelevant as long as his body tingled and felt sated for the first time in days - hopefully not just for the moment.  The thought made him twitch with uneasiness and for an instant he grabbed the woman's shoulders tighter and pressed himself against her before he gratefully sank deeper into the cosy haze of fatigue that dragged him down into slumber.

Amanda lay still beneath him, only occasionally stroking her hand over his back and into his hair amazed at the soft texture of this hard body's shell. However, no matter how much she wanted to just savour that moment her nagging consciousness demanded answers. Answers she was not yet prepared to give but the low treacherous voice of her conscience refused to be put off any longer. She closed her eyes tightly and tried to evade yet again. All she wished was to stay in this state of bliss as long as possible - which certainly was not much longer.  Her breathing had changed from the former excited pant to a strained gasp the longer she lay buried beneath her lover. She could feel his full weight bearing down on her when the tension in his muscles slowly eased and he was about to fall asleep. Almost reluctantly she loosened her embrace and wedged her hands between them to push against his chest, trying to make him move off of her. He gave a disapproving sound and grasped her shoulders to keep her from moving.

"Please," she whispered. "You're crushing me."

At last he heavily slid off her but kept one hand possessively over her abdomen. She took a deep breath and her chest protested.  She turned away from him on her side to breathe easier. Instantly he slid closer and wrapped himself around her from behind, nuzzling her neck and then lying still. Not moving, almost numb, she listened to his breathing that gradually became slow and deep as he was falling asleep, leaving her alone with her swirling thoughts. What had she done? She had slept with another man, with a stranger and to top it all a Vulcan! Why had she done it? Why had *he* done it? Did it matter?

Unbidden thoughts of someone to whom it would surely matter surfaced - Michael. But then, did he really mind? How serious could he be if it was that easy for him to cheat on her with that 'assistant' of his? How long had this been going on behind her back?  How long and how often had she shared him with other women during the years they were together? The thought hurt and she moved uncomfortably, feeling the Vulcan's arm tightening protectively around her waist. Tears came to Amanda's eyes. At least one man wanted her, she thought bitterly.  She had no idea why this stranger acted as he did and how long he would, but now in this room at this time, it didn't matter. They seemed to float like being in a soap bubble, isolated from reality. As long as it lasted she was his and he was hers. But the bubble was fragile and ready to burst all too soon throwing her back into a world that had become cold by the actions of someone she believed was in love with her - and she with him. Tears slid over her cheeks. Carefully she wiped them off her face. The Vulcan stirred in his sleep once more as did the fragile connection that still bound their minds together. He subconsciously seemed to feel her pain and his mind instinctively wrapped a protective blanket of comfort around her thoughts, warming her mentally as his body did physically. She grasped his hand and drew it up to place it against her chest. Slowly, her mind fogged by the comfortable warmth around her she fell into a deep dreamless sleep that sheltered her from reason and reality.

 

--- Part 15 ---

A noise similar to a soft snore woke Amanda a few hours later. She was disoriented and her mind seemed to be dragged down into sleep, making the process of waking up feel like trying to rise from thick jelly, but somehow she felt it was important she wake up. Before she even opened her eyes she knew she was in for a major headache when she felt her blood sloshing through her head like thick syrup. She lifted her head and squinted. A bluish haze greeted her eyes - that and a narrow streak of light from the bathroom. Disoriented her gaze travelled to the other side of the room. The curtains were open and she could see three moons hovering in the dark blue sky. She blinked in confusion until she realized she wasn't in her apartment in New Atlantica - then she remembered the hotel room.

She memorized having a bath and...oh dear, too much champagne and no water afterwards to prevent dehydration. 'No wonder I have a king-sized headache,' she thought. She had never been good at handling that stuff. But there was something disturbing her, something that didn't seem to be caused by the after effect of alcohol. It felt like a low murmur - inside her head! That was odd. She had never experienced such a thing before. She tried to pinpoint its location but the unsettling murmur evaded her searching thoughts each time she reached for it. Feeling the headache worsening, she finally gave up on chasing the phenomenon. Her head flopped back on the pillow and she winced when the pain thrummed through her temples. She lifted a weary hand and rubbed it over her forehead. She heard movement beside her and froze. Her eyes were still closed but for the first time she listened intently and heard deep, even breathing beside her that she had miraculously ignored before. 

Carefully she opened her eyes and saw someone lying beside her in the bed. She was sure she had entered the room alone. The person next to her was definitely male by the size of the hand that lay on the pillow beside her head. Her eyes focussed in on the long and slender fingers, then followed the line of the arm to the well formed chest that was heaving steadily while the man slept. His face was turned away from her and she could only see a mass of dark wavy hair but this was definitely not Michael - this man had a smooth chest. Her thoughts wandered off for a moment. How she loved to stroke her hand through Michael's chest hair. 

Michael. The name cut through her. Betrayal! Michael had betrayed her and she had gone into the room alone and ... She closed her eyes and swallowed convulsively when the rest of memories from the night hit her. She felt cold, then nauseous. All the feelings from the previous night were back - hurt, anger, desire and passion, comfort. But this man ... this Vulcan.! With a start she sat up straight and immediately regretted it when the blood hammered in her head and her stomach clenched. Squeezing her eyes shut, she swallowed forcefully, breathed deeply and held her head as if she were afraid it would fall off. When the feeling eased and she trusted herself enough not to throw up all over the bed, she opened her eyes again and almost fearfully stared down on the man beside her. Although he was still sleeping she hastily grabbed a bed sheet and covered her nakedness. Some hidden voice inside her scoffed and told her that it was obviously too late for such modesty. She closed her eyes briefly. That was true. She could still feel the sticky evidence of their lovemaking between her legs. 'Stupid! You didn't even protect yourself!' the voice ranted on. She ignored it but still felt awkward sitting naked beside a stranger. 'A stranger you slept with', said the annoying voice.  'Shut up!' she snapped back and it sounded so real to her that she stared down at the Vulcan for a moment to see if she had spoken out loud and wakened him. But he just inhaled deeply and then lay still.

What to do now? Surprisingly, the voice didn't offer further wisdom this time. Suddenly the urge to run away overcame Amanda so strongly that she barely resisted the urge to jump up and run from the room. Questions started to rain down on her; yelled by her remorse, they seemed as loud as if they were actually echoing through the room. Why had she done it? Did she want to hurt Michael with this? How stupid! She had no idea what had made her lose control over herself. Not that she would mind having a passionate night, but with someone she didn't know and whose name she couldn't even remember correctly? What had he said his name was? She couldn't remember. How embarrassing!

She shook her head as if she could bring up the memory that way, without success. The information was gone. However, one thing was for sure, it had been wrong. But she had been hurt and it had felt so good to be wanted so she had just let it happen. She looked at the peacefully sleeping man. She bent forward until she could see his face. His eyes were still closed but she remembered how they had glistened when she awoke from her dream and saw him kneeling beside the bed, obviously very aroused after witnessing the effects her erotic fantasies had had on her.  Her eyes widened. How could he?  This was so humiliating, although she had to admit that she had challenged fortune by refusing to relinquish the suite and getting drunk. The erotic dream might have been the revenge of a mind that got no opportunity to work out the feeling of shock and betrayal before she shut it up it with the help of alcohol. What had happened afterwards was a storm of passion and erotic images. With accurate brutality her mind delivered every picture, every touch, every scent and every feeling of the love-making. It left her in a state somewhere between bewildered and aroused and she closed her eyes and counted to ten to calm down, afraid that her hammering heart would wake up the Vulcan beside her. Her eyes snapped open when she pondered the thought. If he woke up now she'd have some serious explaining to do.

'Really? Why?' asked another part of herself. 'It takes two.' The voice was interrupted by the movement of the Vulcan. Amanda's eyes grew wide and for an instant she forgot her own discomfort. Ready to jump and run if he woke up, she stared wide eyed, but he just mumbled in his sleep and turned over. The sleek bed sheet draped over his hips slid down in slow motion and brought his well formed backside into view. She remembered feeling the muscles shift under her hands while she looked at the skin that gleamed softly in the narrow streak of light from the bathroom. How strong he had felt, all of him. She blushed at her own thought. She hadn't even noticed that she held her breath and now released it when the Vulcan relaxed and continued sleeping.  

Now was the best time to leave. Carefully she got out of the bed and darted into the bathroom. She cleaned her private places, then picked up her discarded clothing and left the bathroom after hastily putting them on. With a tinge of sadness she looked down on the sleeping Vulcan for a last time. He had been so passionate but gentle and tender at the same time. She couldn't find a rational explanation for his bizarre behaviour. She didn't know much about his species but enough to know it was odd that he had so determinedly searched out contact with her. Maybe it wasn't true that Vulcans were cold fish. Or he was just the same kind of lonely and hurt soul in need of comfort as she had been when she allowed a total stranger to touch her in such an intense and intimate way. Anyway, she would probably never know. She was sorry to have to leave him like that but it would be best for both of them. 

She turned and tiptoed to the door in order not to wake him. On her way she came by his bags that stood lined against the wall. What man travelled with so many bags? Who was he? Did he mention a title? No matter. She just had to get out of here as quickly as possible. The whole thing had been a terrible mistake. Whatever had caused the Vulcan to act so much out of character was surely entitled to cause a lot of follow-up problems and she was in no way up to them. Her own involvement would certainly only serve to makes matters worse. Besides, after the initial shock about Michael's betrayal she felt anger replacing the abandoned feeling and she decided to give him one hell of a bad time for treating her so badly. 

Picking up her suitcase she made her way to the door. When her hand hovered over the old fashioned doorknob she cast a last look back at the Vulcan. Guilt flooded her about the fact that she was leaving so cowardly before they had a chance to talk, but it would be better for both of them, or so she told herself again.  She opened the door and quietly slipped outside. Closing the door carefully she breathed a sigh of relief.

 

 

--- Part 16 ---

She turned and stopped dead in her tracks when she found herself face to face with Michael who had just left one of the elevators. Devoid of any ability to react Amanda just stared at him for a moment. His sudden presence rendered her speechless and effectively messed up her plans to take him to task for his actions. "How did you get up here?" she finally said, wondering what caused her to ask such a trivial question after what had happened since last night.

"I slipped in with the cleaning staff," Michael answered, looking her up and down. She looked as tired as he felt after having spent half the night in heavy traffic to get here.

Amanda stared back at him and then she nervously ran a hand through her hair and fought with the top button of her blouse so that he wouldn't see the bite marks on her neck. She blushed when imagining what a mess she must be with rumpled clothes and mussed hair.

"You stayed in the suite all night long?" Michael asked.

That finally brought back Amanda's anger. "That is none of your business anymore," she said, her eyes glistening.

Michael breathed deeply and seemed to swallow a heated reply. "Look," he said and took a step closer. He lifted his hands defiantly when Amanda stepped back when he approached. "I made a terrible mistake."  He tried speaking in a calm voice but by the flash in her eyes he could see his confession wasn't making an impression on her. 

"Yes, Michael. You *did* make a terrible mistake," she answered. "What are you gonna do now? Ask my forgiveness?"

Michael shrugged and looked at her with big excusatory eyes. "Would it be too late for that?"

Amanda just glared back, not having anything doing with his puppy dog eyes. "What if it were?" She didn't give him time to answer and continued, "You know, Michael, it doesn't matter if I forgive you or not. You already made your decision."

"But, I'm truly sorry," he said and spread his arms. "And I'm here now." He looked down and dropped his arms. "I miss you," he murmured.

Amanda set down her suitcase forcefully. "You're here now?! And that makes it all better, huh?" She shook her head, smiling sarcastically. "You simply admit to having made a mistake and I'm supposed to forget that you cheated on me. That would suit you just fine, right?"

"No, of course not. But. I won't see Simone anymore. What else do you want?"

"Oh, Simone, that's her name then," Amanda said, her anger rising.

Michael's brows bunched together. "Yes, that is her name," he said forcefully. "But what does it matter? I won't go back to her and I'm sure we can find our way back to each other."

Amanda crossed her arms in front of her chest, shaking her head slowly. "You know what, Michael? I think you don't know what you want. You are like a kid with too many toys. You always want the one you currently can't have."

Michael looked at her with a defiant expression. "No, I can make final decisions. And I did. I'm willing to make it up to you. So… what do you say? "

Amanda just stared at him blankly. How could he be so naïve to believe she would just dismiss what happened? 'Yeah, sorry Amanda, I did it with my assistant but now I'm back and all is fine.' He couldn't be that stupid, could he? If possible her regard for him dropped even lower. What had she ever appreciated about him? 

He misinterpreted her silence as positive musings about his proposal and stepped closer and took her hands. She tried to shake him off but he wouldn't let go of her. "Amanda, please listen," Michael said and held her tight.

"No, let me go," Amanda said and again tried to break his touch.

The collar of her blouse opened and Michael's gaze fell on a purple bruise at the base of her neck. He knew these kind of markings very well. Usually they were a sweet reminder of a most passionate night. But what was wrong here was that they were not his. Could she…? He narrowed his eyes and increased the pressure on Amanda's hands. "What is this?" he said suspiciously. Amanda's averted her gaze and she didn't answer. "I said, what is this?!" Michael yelled at her, feeling his anger doing a leap.

Amanda's gaze snapped back to him and she flinched by the angry expression in his eyes. He had never been this furious with her. She stumbled back and fell over her suitcase.

 

 

--- Part 17 ---

Sarek awoke to agitated voices coming from outside the suite. His mind was foggy and he needed several seconds to remember what had happened during the night. His gaze went to the place beside him. It was empty. Shame flooded him when he remembered the events of the previous night. Inwardly he prepared to forsake his career. What he had done was inexcusable; he had forced himself on a woman. Where was she? He frowned and again became aware of the agitated voices outside of his room. He got up and went to the door only realizing in the last moment that he wasn't wearing any clothes. Quickly, he retrieved a robe from the bathroom. By the time he had reached the door again, the voices had become even louder and the demand of a woman to be released was followed by a hard thudding sound. After Sarek had opened the door he froze. The woman he saw on the floor in the corridor was the same he had spend the night with. Shame was forgotten when he saw the human male who was bent over her, holding her wrists and displaying an angry expression. 

Without further thought Sarek approached the man and grabbed his arms. The man yelped at the painful pressure and released his hold. Again Sarek's blood boiled and he felt the almost uncontrollable urge to slam the male into the opposite wall. Only with tremendous effort did he manage to push the human away from him.

"Who are you?" he rasped with a hoarse voice. "How dare you assault my woman?"

"Your what?" Michael had found his voice and watched the other man with a bewildered expression. He was Vulcan but his face looked unmistakably angry. Vulcans didn't get mad, did they? The man had positioned himself between him and Amanda and was watching him through narrowed eyes. His hair was mussed and through the cleft of the robe Michael could see part of the Vulcan's heaving chest and noticed the bite marks on it. He remembered the bruise at Amanda's neck and his gaze switched to her, but she refused eye contact and averted her face. Slowly he put the puzzle together:  only one room on the floor; Amanda leaving the suite in a rumpled state; this guy coming after her not looking a tad more groomed than she was; and both bearing physical marks of passion. Could it be? Those two?! But it was said Vulcans didn't have any sexual interest! But both Amanda's and that guy's appearance as well as the quick glances they had exchanged when the Vulcan entered the corridor could mean only one thing. However Amanda had managed to get that dude into bed, she must have done a thorough job and judging by the marks on the Vulcan's chest they must have had one hell of a good night. He laughed humourlessly. "Oh, I see," he said and glared at Amanda who had gotten up from the floor and retreated from both men.  "You play the hurt innocent soul. But I see you comforted yourself quite quickly," he said and then slapped a hand against his forehead. "And I came after you. I'm such an idiot." He took a step in Amanda's direction. Sarek instantly tensed and attracted Michael's attention. "Your woman, huh?" Michael spat. "You know what? You can keep her."

Sarek's hands curled into fists. "I do not require your permission," he growled.

Michael nodded. "Yeah, right. As it seems you didn't bother before," he ranted on, not realizing the danger he was potentially in by testing the Vulcan's controls to their limit. He pointed to the woman. "C'mon, take her back to the room and the two of you can continue where you left off!"

Impertinence! roared Sarek's thoughts and the last shred of his rationality was chased away again by a green haze of rage. He set off to rid himself of the offending presence of the human. 

Michael saw the Vulcan coming and raised his fists to be prepared. His anger and hurt about Amanda's behaviour made him leave reason behind and he didn't waste a thought on the sure odds for him losing this fight. Someone had to take his anger and if this Vulcan dude offered himself, hell, why not!? 

But surprisingly Amanda was faster than the Vulcan and stepped between the two men. She put a hand flat against the Vulcan's chest to stop his momentum and mirrored the movement with her other hand in Michael's direction. She felt the warmth emanating from the Vulcan's skin and again the odd whispering in her mind came back through the touch. The connection seemed to calm him immediately. She felt a rush of memories from the last night surging over her together with a feeling of protectiveness. She shivered briefly and realized they were not her thoughts which caused the reaction. It felt wrong to have her mind influenced but it was so right all the same. The feelings were accompanied by a fierce urge for possession, however, and this angered her. How dare this Vulcan claim her?! How dare Michael offer her for trade?!

"Stop that!" Her sharp voice startled both men and they broke the fiery lock of their gazes and stared at Amanda. She was shivering and close to tears. She looked at both men in turn. "How dare you two do this to me? I'm no one's property around here," she said and her furious gaze defied Sarek's smouldering eyes. The Vulcan didn't react, only his nostrils flared in a gesture of suppressed agitation. But he remained rooted to the spot, for the time being content enough with her close presence. Amanda turned to Michael.  "And as far as our 'relationship' is concerned," she inhaled deeply to ban the tremor from her voice, "you betrayed me. I trusted you and I was always honest with you. Whatever I did last night is none of your business anymore. You gave up access to my personal life when you began that affair with your assistant.  I don't owe you an explanation. In fact you don't deserve one. Why are you here, anyway? Why don't you go back to your office and continue screwing that assistant of yours like you have been doing for who knows how long?!" Her voice had risen with each word and when she finished, she was almost screaming, not even noticing the unusual vulgar nature of her speech.

"Right, and you .. and you are any better?" Michael shot back. "Look at you. You feel hurt and the next thing you do is climb into bed with some alien. Did you two even take enough time to introduce yourself to one another?"

Amanda felt the pressure against her hand on the Vulcan's chest increasing as a sure sign he was losing it again. Before she could say something to ease the tense atmosphere, the doors of the elevator opened and three Vulcans exited the car. Amanda recognized one of them as the guy who had asked her to leave the night before. The second was one hulk of a man, possibly a bodyguard, and the third carried a small case and wore a robe adorned with lots of Vulcan glyphs she could not identify. 

The Vulcan she had seen the day before took in the situation, scrutinizing her and his compatriot behind her. His brown eyes seemed to look deeply into her soul and she averted her gaze, believing that he as well as the others knew what she had done. Michael was right. She had been stupid to give herself to another man she had never seen before and whose name she didn't even remember. She had never felt so humiliated in her life and felt weak upon seeing her world crashing down on her. The bizarre situation blocked her thoughts. Unable to cope with the conflicting feelings and her embarrassment, she fled down the corridor in the direction of the staircase.

"No," she heard her lover of one night call after her and a commotion following the shout told her he was trying to follow her. That knowledge only increased her speed and she burst through the door and almost blindly flew down the steps that seemed to have no end. She did not care about the startled glances she received when she broke into the lobby and fled the hotel to disappear in the crowds passing by outside.

 

 

--- Part 18 ---

"Kroykah!" Soran yelled when the woman fled and Sarek was about to set after her. Sarek slowed his pace upon hearing the command but didn't give up the pursuit completely, so the guard stepped forward and blocked his passage. The man was several inches taller and much heavier than Sarek. Shaken back to rationality by the ancient command to cease combat, the ambassador seemed to realize that a fight with the guard bore little chance of him winning and he came to a halt. He flexed his hands for a few seconds, a part of him obviously still deciding whether to attack the guard.

The healer approached both men and murmured calming Vulcan phrases. He lifted a hypo and pressed it to Sarek's exposed arm. The ambassador tensed when the device hissed and injected its contents into his bloodstream. Instantly coolness flooded him and he relaxed. Carefully the healer reached for Sarek's arm, cautious to touch a place covered still by the robe to avoid mental contact. He slowly turned his patient around. Sarek's gaze remained glued to the door the woman had disappeared through and only reluctantly and under the influence of drugs, he let himself be led back to the suite.

Soran breathed a sigh of relief. That had been close. He silently thanked the architects of the building for installing security cameras. They might have saved a life today. He had fetched the guard and the healer immediately when the hotel personnel had informed him of a confrontation in front of the ambassador's suite. He turned to the Human still standing in the corridor. He had not bothered to go after the fleeing female. What was his role in this situation? "Who are you?" he asked the human and was astonished to see the man's sarcastic smile.

"Me?" he asked. Then he turned halfway to Sarek and the healer who had reached the entrance to the suite. "I am the man before him," he said tersely and pointed a finger at Sarek.

The gazes of the two men instantly locked and Sarek stopped dead in his tracks. Soran assessed the situation immediately. The woman had obviously spend the night in Sarek's suite and judging by her's and Sarek's appearance as well as his friend's condition there was only one logical conclusion for what had happened between them. 

The anger the human displayed could only mean he was involved with the female, his agitation therefore understandable, his provocation of Sarek foolish, however. But how could he know Sarek was a very dangerous man in his current state? They all had underestimated the severe nature of his condition. Soran thought about the potential difficulties Sarek had brought onto himself when he pondered the idea that the woman might not have given herself to his friend willingly. He felt a pang of guilt. He was to blame also. He should have prevented Sarek from making this voyage. It was, in fact, his mistake, not Sarek's. Sarek's rationality was obviously impaired too severely to make responsible decisions. But he had realized that too late.  It would have to be examined carefully what had happened between him and this woman. If there had been violence to ensure her submission, he had to take the legal and emotional consequences of Sarek's actions. But at first the matter at hand had to be resolved. Two males making a claim on the same female was a dangerous situation, no matter the species. He stepped between them, breaking the men's eye contact with his mere physical presence.   "I see," he said and clasped his hands behind his back. "Are you her husband?" He felt uncomfortable asking such a  personal question. It was not the Vulcan way, but he had no choice if he intended to judge the situation correctly and assess the consequences.

Again the human smirked. "Hell no, I'm not." He sobered a bit. "Maybe better this way," he added a tad more tame.

Soran breathed a sigh of relief. So this man had no legal claim on this woman as his wife. His relief fled him again when he thought of Sarek possibly using violence to get from the female that which his urge drove him to. The disruption of a marriage was minor compared to the possibility of physical and emotional damage the woman could have suffered. Kaiidth. They had to face whatever consequences would follow this situation. Another thought puzzled him and he braced himself for another intrusion in the human's privacy. "If you have no claim on this woman, why did you seek her out in this hotel?"

The human's gaze cleared again and grew hard. "I think that's none of your business." He hesitated a moment and seemed to change his mind and his gaze grew distant. "I came here to apologize but that is obviously no longer necessary," he explained and cast a glance at the open suite door. Then he looked at Soran to see whether the Vulcan understood his hint. 

The dark head bowed. "I see," the Vulcan said.  Soran was arguing with himself. Should he tell the man that the woman might not have subjected to Sarek willingly? But could he do that? This assumption was still unproven. It was better to examine the issue further before planting false facts into the human's mind.

"May I go now?" The voice interrupted Soran's thoughts.

"Of course," Soran asked. "However, may I ask for your address in case it should be necessary to contact you?"

Michael frowned. "What do you need that for?" he asked but then waved off an explanation. "Forget it." He was too tired to think about it. What did it matter? He took out a small silvery case from his jacket and handed the Vulcan his card. "There you go." He waited until the Vulcan had taken it and then turned to leave. 

Soran quickly scanned the card and a thought occurred to him. "Mr. Crowe?" The man turned. "May I assume that the current events will handled with the proper procedure?" The human frowned, then he seemed to understand and nodded.

"Believe me, I have no desire to spread this kind of story," he said. He'd lost his girlfriend to a Vulcan. How do you explain that you lost your girl to such a cold fish? But then, this Vulcan had not seemed as unemotional as they were said to be. He sure must have brought the others into trouble. He smirked inwardly. 'Serves him right,' he thought. No wonder they asked for secrecy after one of them having been involved with an emotional being like a human. He briefly thought about spreading the story that Vulcans weren't so free of emotions as they claimed. But ... who would believe him? All they would see was that he was even more boring than a Vulcan. He would be the laughing stock all around if this should seep through. That was something he could well live without. Amanda had made her decision. So be it.

Soran nodded. Until the matter could be examined further it was important that no information left the circle of those directly involved. He had the human's address so should he be needed to testify he could easily be found. But what about the woman? The hotel staff had been so intensely occupied with managing the excess guests that they had not given him the name of the female yet. Logic dictated, however, they must have it for she had claimed to have booked the suite in the first place. What was even more logical, though, was to ask the human who seemed to know her. "What is the lady's name?" 

The calm Vulcan's voice shook Michael out of his thoughts and his eyes clouded with emotion. "Amanda," he said softly. "Her name is Amanda Grayson."

Soran nodded, unable to read the emotion in the human's eyes. "I thank you for your service." Then he lifted his hand. "Life long and prosper"

"Sure," Michael said wearily, not bothering to return the Vulcan greeting properly and entered the elevator. The Vulcan's puzzled gaze lingered on him until the lift doors closed.

 

 

--- Part 19 ---

Soran raised an eyebrow and turned to enter the suite. His gaze fell on the suitcase the woman had left behind. He gave the guard a brief command in Vulcan asking him to wait outside, then he picked up the abandoned suitcase and entered the suite, closing the door and thus shutting out the security cameras. They had seen enough to make it difficult to keep secret. He made a mental note to demand the discs the cameras had recorded being handed out to him. Then he returned is attention to his friend.

He immediately spotted Sarek and the healer in one corner of the room. Sarek was kneeling in a meditative stance, his palms laid flat together in front of his face, holding a joss stick that dispersed calming incense. His gaze was focussed inward and he was intently listening to the healer who sat across from him, mirroring his stance. In order to give the healer some time to restore Sarek's controls to a level of civil functioning Soran set down the suitcase and stepped away to take in the room. He noticed with relief that it didn't contain any traces of a fight. Only the bedclothes were rumpled but this was not surprising after…  He suppressed a blush at the thought. 

He continued his survey but the only torn items seemed to be Sarek's clothes lying beside the bed. The fact concerned him but that alone didn't offer enough evidence to reconstruct the happenings of the night. He entered the bathroom and his gaze fell to the tub. Through the now-clear water he spotted a bottle lying in the tub and rolled up his sleeve to retrieve it. He read the label and recognized it as an alcoholic beverage humans often served at receptions. The tray on the small cart beside the tub held two glasses and a bowl of Earth fruit. He noticed the glasses were unused. He doubted Sarek would indulge in alcohol regardless his condition, or would he? When he had come to the room last night, Sarek hadn't seemed intoxicated. But the woman had not consumed the bottle all on her own, had she? This could have affected her behaviour decisively. He sighed. There was no other way to know what happened other than asking Sarek after his treatment and the woman after she had been found. 

He returned to the main room. The heavy incense from the joss sticks filled the air and by the intensity of the fragrance it must have burned down completely, the lesson thus finished. He dared a glance at the corner and saw Sarek still sitting there, his legs tucked beneath him, his eyes closed and his hands resting palm down on his thighs. He seemed to be calm but Soran noticed with concern that the healer just loaded a hypo, a clear indicator Sarek was not yet able to control his reactions. After injecting it the healer murmured something to Sarek who only inclined his head, his eyes still closed. Then the healer turned to Soran, nodded and left the suite. Soran sat across from his friend, mirroring Sarek's position.

He waited patiently until Sarek opened his eyes. Their gaze was cool and calm and Soran was relieved to see his friend was 'back'. "I take it your condition has improved?" 

"Affirmative," Sarek answered with a soft voice. 

"Will you be able to lead the talks today?" Soran asked carefully.

"Affirmative."

Silence stretched between the two men and Soran averted his gaze. What he had to discuss was not a pleasant subject. He re-established eye contact with Sarek. "I must know of the nature of the encounter between you and the human woman. Is there a reason to inform the authorities?"

Sarek's eyes flashed for a brief instant and then his forehead creased in confusion. His memories were still a bit foggy. It had taken him a great effort to allow the healer to clear them for him. The experience was very personal and humiliating. Not every detail of memory created during the last night had been restored. What had happened between the woman and himself, however, was obvious. He still felt a trace of heat rise in him when thinking about her, but the heat was accompanied by apprehension. He was sure he'd had no need to force her but what made her give herself freely to him if she was involved with the other man? She had almost seemed to be in desperate need for physical contact. Why had she done it? Why he had done it was obvious. Shame flooded him. How could he have allowed himself to go so far? He should have stayed on Vulcan and sought the help of a reldai to erase the remaining fires in him. Instead, he had arrogantly declared his passions under control. Now he had shared them with a stranger about whose motives for cooperation he had no information.

"Sarek?"

Soran's voice snapped him out of his thoughts. He sighed and folded his hands in his lap. "My memories have not been restored fully." He saw Soran tense and lifted a hand. "I know, however, that there is no reason for your concern that I may have applied violence."

Soran averted his eyes upon Sarek's keen assessment of his disquiet. Sarek waited calmly until Soran looked up again, but his friend's gaze was not focussed on his eyes but on part of his exposed chest. Sarek looked down at himself and saw the bite mark Amanda's teeth had left on his skin. He pulled the robe closed, causing Soran to meet his eyes.

"This can be explained. It was not caused by violence." Sarek started to explain, but faltered due to the personal nature of the subject. "It was… she…"  He tried again and a shade of green coloured his face.

Soran shook his head. "If you say it was not caused by violence, I believe you. You need not explain, my friend." His gaze locked with Sarek's and the other Vulcan was secretly relieved to see acceptance in Soran's eyes.

"We should, however, question her," Soran said. "Her friend gave me..." Soran stopped when Sarek's eyes flashed upon the mentioning of the other man. 'We are still not out of this,' Soran thought and waited until Sarek controlled the reaction. "Her friend gave me her name and his card," he continued when Sarek's eyes were cool and even again. "We can contact him if we do not find her."

"What is her name?" Sarek asked, ignoring the information about the other human.

Soran frowned. "You did have a mental connection to her, did you not?" he asked puzzled.

Sarek inhaled deeply. "Yes, I did," he said. 'I still do,' he added in his thoughts. Still he had not probed her thoughts for a name. When they were together it seemed so unimportant. The closeness of souls doesn't require names. Maybe Soran could not know for he had not yet experienced the incredible closeness and mental union of two beings during pon farr. Anyway, he had shielded the link from the healer who would only examine parts of his mind he had been given permission to examine. He knew Sarek was hiding a mental connection but he would not mention that fact to anyone. Sarek told himself he didn't know the reason for keeping it but the truth was he knew he did not want to relinquish the feeling of closeness. Illogical as it was, he refused to give that up yet. The healer had realized that and had not prodded him although he knew it was vital they found the woman before the mental connection could do damage in case she rejected it. 

"What is her name?" he asked Soran again.

"Amanda Grayson," the younger Vulcan replied, possibly still wondering how such an essential thing as a name could remain unasked during a mental contact.

"Amanda," Sarek tried the pronunciation. The syllables formed well to his ear and he listened to the mental echo of the name. He resisted the strong urge to touch the link. She had fled in fear. If he touched her mind she would only be frightened. His gaze cleared again. "You are correct, we have to find her." He got up and walked to the bathroom. "Cancel the planned meetings for today," he advised a baffled Soran.

"You intend to search for her yourself?" Soran asked, a bit confused about the sudden change in demeanour.

Sarek didn't even turn. "Yes."

"But what about the negotiations?
You are to lead them." Soran asked again. Why was Sarek changing his mind?

Sarek turned slowly. "I am not feeling well. It is vitally important that I remedy this situation before entering a conference room, is it not?"

Soran bowed. "Perfectly logical, Ambassador. I shall inform the delegates." 

After his friend had left, Sarek went into the bathroom and stopped before entering the shower. Picking up the small scarf that lay hidden between the bathtub and the shower a hint of a fragrance waved up to him. He froze for an instant and then lifted the item to his face and took in its scent. Immediately a rush of memories burst through his mind, threatening to shatter his newly-established controls. The scent was unmistakable - it was her.  "Amanda," he breathed. "I must find you."

THE END