TIME WILL
TELL
Perrin looked up with dismay from
her teacup. "This is mint
tea?" she said.
Ki Mendrossen spread his hands in apology. "So they say." He watched as Perrin set down her cup and
surveyed the room. He saw her eyes fall
on the papers and padds piled precariously on his desk.
"It seems that the new attaché
to the 'Great Lion of Vulcan' is behind on his work," she observed.
Mendrossen nodded, chagrinned.
"To tell the truth, I am overwhelmed." he replied. Sarek has so many negotiations started, some
of which he has been working on for decades.
Even you would find it hard to keep everything straight."
Perrin leaned back in her chair.
"So, that's why you have summoned me here, and served me this
pitiful excuse for mint tea" she concluded. You need to save face before the ambassador, and you need me to
help you."
Ki smiled and saluted her with his water goblet. "So perceptive of you! I'm glad you accept."
Perrin waved her hands in front of herself. "Who said anything about accepting?'
she asked. I'm only here for the free
trip..."
"Which was a one way ticket,
remember?" he reminded.
"...and a chance to meet the
ambassador."
Ki nearly choked on his water.
"Sarek doesn't know that I have sent for you," he replied in
dismay. "If I tell him I need help
in arranging his schedule, he'll think me inefficient..."
"You are," Perrin
interjected.
"...and unable to do the job
properly."
"You can't, at least without my
organizational skills."
Ki leaned in conspiratorially.
"Exactly," he breathed. "Help me organize this place in a
way I can understand, that's all I ask.
I'm not asking for a long-term commitment. Just stay long enough to get me started on the right foot. I'll pay you well, from my own
pocket."
Perrin looked to the ceiling and laughed. "That will be a first," she
replied. "Last time I looked, your
pockets had holes in them."
Ki sat back, his cheeks flaming.
"That was a long time ago," he argued. "People change, even me. Who do you think paid for your trip
here?"
Perrin smiled wryly.
"Well, since the packet bore the official seal," she replied,
"I assumed that the embassy did."
Ki waved a hand dismissively.
"No, I just let them pay for the postage," he said. The attaché leaned forward again in
desperation. "Please say you'll do
it, please?"
Perrin swirled her now cold tea.
"Oh, don't beg. I'll do
it," she answered (Ki smiled the smile of a reprieved man), "but, the
ambassador will have to know. I want to
be above board with him. You'll have to
let me meet him."
Ki nervously ran his fingers through his hair. "I'll see what I can do," he
promised
Ki felt a looming presence in the
office doorway. He carefully composed
his face before turning to see Ambassador Sarek standing there. "Good day, Ambassador," he
said. "How may I be of
service?"
"Good day, Mr. Mendrossen"
Sarek replied. "I am in need of
the Legaran files." Ki reached
into a cabinet and produced the documents.
"These are updated with last night's negotiations?"
"Yes, Ambassador," Ki
replied, handing over the requested files.
Sarek studied his attaché a moment. "Your efficiency has greatly improved recently," the
Vulcan observed.
Ki bowed slightly.
"Why, thank you, Ambassador," he replied.
Sarek studied the man again.
"Your predecessor required an assistant to keep up with my
projects,” he said. "You, I
presume, do not?"
Ki started. "An
assistant would be of great help, Ambassador," the attaché responded. Sarek continued to gaze at Ki. Examine me, he thought. The human began to squirm. "Actually, I took the liberty to ask a
friend of mine to help me get started."
"I see," the ambassador
replied. Sarek continued his
stare. Ki felt skewered. "This office handles extremely
sensitive documents, Mr. Mendrossen," he said at last. "Everyone who works here must have the
highest security clearances. This
government requires--I require--total truth at all times. Is that understood?"
Ki lowered his gaze, humiliated.
"I understand perfectly, Mr. Ambassador," he answered humbly.
"See to it that this person is
cleared through embassy security and put on the payroll at once," Sarek
ordered. "Anyone who can get this
office and my schedule in order in such a short time must be exemplary."
"I shall comply at once,"
Ki said meekly.
Sarek eyed his attaché once more.
The man was obviously deflated.
That would not do. "And Mr.
Mendrossen," he added. Ki looked
up. "Call me 'Ambassador' in
public only. Feel free to use my given
name at other times."
Ki was startled. Such
intimacy! He thought he'd be fired for
certain. He nodded his gratitude. "Thank you, sir," he
breathed. "And you may call me
'Mendrossen.' Mister Mendrossen
is my father." Sarek raised an
eyebrow in response. The attaché was
astonished to find that humor was not lost on the Vulcan. Ki called Perrin's hotel room to tell her
the good news.
"Perrin, I can't find the file
on the Legarans," Ki called out.
"Have you seen it?"
Perrin picked up the padd she was working on and waved it at
Ki. "It's right here," she
answered. "I just finished
entering the updates."
Ki took it from her.
"Perrin," he kissed her hand, "you are a life-saver. The Ambassador was just asking for this."
Perrin crossed her arms with a huff. "Speaking of asking," she interjected, "when are
you going to let me meet the 'Great Lion'?"
Ki hemmed and hawed and fumbled with the padd. "I
need to get this to Himself," he mumbled nervously.
Perrin held out a hand.
"I can do that for you," she said. Ki nervously shook his head.
"At least let me go with you!"
Ki moved towards the door.
"Not this time," he answered.
"Let me set something up, a formal presentation. Really, I've got to go." At that, Ki scurried out the door. Perrin sighed and turned back to her desk.
A sharp intake of breath startled
Perrin. She turned towards the sound
and found... "Mr.
Ambassador!" she breathed.
Sarek gasped at the sight of
her. Her race, her height, her age,
even her hair coloring, all reminded him of Amanda the first time he saw
her. The sense of déjà vu as
almost painful. He opened his mouth to
speak, but, to his chagrin, no words would come out. Perrin curtsied to him (for want of something to do).
"I am Perrin," she said,
"assistant to you attaché, Ki Mendrossen.
I come to serve."
"Welcome, Ms. Perrin," he
replied formally. "Peace and long
life." He cleared his throat and
gathered some dignity about himself.
"I come in search of Mendrossen.
Where may I find him?"
"Right behind you, sir,"
Ki gasped. The attaché ran up behind
the Vulcan, short of breath.
"Forgive me, Sarek. I just
missed you in your office. Here are the
files you requested."
Sarek took the files from his panting attaché. He cocked an eyebrow at the human. "Some tri-ox compound will ease your
breathing, Mendrossen," he observed.
"When you are recovered, come to my office with the week's
schedule." He turned to
Perrin. "Madam," he bowed.
Sarek was plagued by distractions
during his meditations that night. His
mind kept wandering back to his meeting with Perrin, and to the bittersweet
memories of his dear wife Amanda. Would
you see yourself in her? he thought.
She does not look like you, but something about her reminds me of
you. Remember when I first saw
you? You were working in the embassy on
Earth, so young, so lovely, and so confident, so sure of yourself. Perhaps that is what I see in Perrin.
Ah, Amanda. I know you gave me your blessing in finding
a new mate, and the time grows short for me.
But this is the first time I have looked at another woman, and whom do I
find but a copy of you. Would you say
that she is too young for me? I should
have another hundred years to live. She
will catch up to me by then. I wonder
what Spock would think of her.
Spock refilled his father's water
goblet. He could not remember Sarek
ever being so talkative, unless, of course, he was lecturing his son on some
infraction or error. The subject of his
interest seemed to be some young human female now working in the embassy.
"This new assistant..."
Spock began.
"Perrin," Sarek said.
"This Perrin. You say she is human, Father?"
"Yes, Spock."
"From Earth?" Spock
continued. Sarek shrugged. "Does she have another name?"
"I suppose," he
replied.
Spock frowned. "You
do not know?" he asked.
"She would not have passed
embassy security if she were a risk," Sarek stated.
Spock pushed on. "She
was hired without your knowledge by an attaché you scarcely know," he
pointed out.
Sarek looked up at his son ominously. "He would not have been employed without passing Security
either," Sarek replied. "Why
are you questioning my choice of employees?"
Spock leaned forward for emphasis. "I am concerned for your safety," he answered. "Too many beings want you
dead."
Sarek sat back and resumed his meal. "Concern yourself no further, my son," he answered
nonchalantly. "I have sufficient
safeguards in place. My life is in no
danger..." Spock sat back, not
convinced. "...today."
He looked up at Sarek sharply and studied him. "I find your behavior careless,
Father," he said levelly.
"Indeed, you have taken several risks lately. Mother would have said you had a 'death
wish.' If for no other reason than
that, you should remarry at once. You
were far more careful while Mother was alive."
Sarek eyed his son and calmly continued his meal. "So, you think that the purpose of
marriage is to keep one safe?" he asked.
Sarek waited patiently for Spock to take the bait. He did not have to wait long.
"Not at all," Spock
replied. I was just making an
observation..." Spock caught the
look in his father's eye. "You are
obviously not taking my concern for your well-being seriously. I see no point in continuing this
conversation." Spock took a last
drink from his cup, wiped his lips, and stood.
"Farewell."
Spock realized that his hasty
retreat from his father's table was rude, but it was better to be rude than to
fall into another nearly emotional argument with him. Mother, you used to say, "There's no talking to him when
he gets like this." How true. Is he missing you so much that he cares not
whether he lives or dies? That is a
disturbing thought. Spock walked in
companionable silence with the memories of his mother. We need to find him a new wife,
Mother. Any suggestions?
Spock nearly walked right into the
woman in the embassy doorway. He looked
up and barely suppressed a gasp.
She struggled to regain some dignity as she picked up her dropped
scarf. "Forgive me," she
said. "How clumsy." It was only then that she looked up into
Spock's face and gasped herself.
"Ambassador Spock, excuse me." He found himself staring at her.
He cleared his throat, trying to gain control of his voice.
"You are the assistant to my
father's attaché?" he asked.
Perrin fumbled with her scarf.
"Yes, sir," she replied.
"My name is Perrin."
Spock considered asking all of his burning questions regarding her
background, but the embassy doorway was not the proper venue. Besides, it was not his place to interrogate
her, especially when it would be easy to find out what he needed to know
directly from the security files.
Perrin was puzzled by his hesitation. Spock seemed to want to say something further but didn't. Well, Perrin had places to go and things to
do. "It was a pleasure meeting
you, Ambassador,” she said. "Peace
and prosperity."
In his reverie, Spock nearly forgot to give the proper
response. "Live long and
prosper," he called out after her.
He raised a suspicious eyebrow after her, turned and headed straight for
security.
Spock studied Perrin's security
file, unconvinced of what he saw there.
After all, even the Vulcan Security Agency was not infallible. Perrin seemed to be a well-educated woman,
originally from Earth, although she had either studied or worked on various
planets and starbases. She possessed
exemplary skills in organization. Those
two facts alone would have made her an excellent choice for an attaché or even
an ambassador herself, not just a lowly assistant.
I cannot shake a sense of
duplicity in this woman. Am I
projecting this onto her? I think
not. It was the behind the scenes
tactics that got her hired without Sarek's knowledge that troubles me. Perhaps I should be more concerned with
Mendrossen's efforts to "put one over" on my father. No, I think it has more to do with the fact
that Perrin bears so strong a resemblance to Mother. Well, not in the face, certainly. Mother was much more beautiful.
It is more her bearing, her confidence, and her no-nonsense nature that
reminds me more of Amanda.
Be honest. If Sarek had hired this woman himself, would I still be opposed
to her? If she were male, or if she
were of some other race, would I care as much?
Do I resent her because I think that Father is looking towards her as a
surrogate for my mother? I cannot
honestly answer any of these questions without more thought. This will be the
subject of tonight's meditation.
Sarek sat in the cool of the evening
on the villa's veranda. He quieted
himself down and calmly sought his center.
Each breath he took grew deeper and slower until he found himself
prepared to meditate. Inwardly, he
smiled. Amanda was there, waiting for
him.
"Amanda! You're here!"
"I never left. I told you that I would always be part of
you. I see you've met someone."
"Indeed."
"What is she like?'
"She's much like you."
"Do you plan to marry
her?"
"I do not know. I haven't known her long."
"Since when did that stop
you? You knew me only a few a months
before you proposed. What's stopping
you?"
"Our son is suspicious of
her."
"Does he have reason to
be?"
"No."
"Do you want to marry
her?"
"She seems suitable."
"Not the most romantic thing
you've ever said. How does she feel
about marriage?"
"I do not know. We haven't discussed the subject."
"Sarek, have you dated her
yet?"
"We have shared meals in the
embassy."
"With the other staff present,
I'm sure."
"Well... yes."
"I see you are out of
practice. Sarek, you have to go
somewhere with her, just her. Remember
our walks along the beach in the moonlight?"
"Vulcan has neither a beach nor
a moon."
"You know what I mean, I know
you do. Get to know her better. More importantly, let her get to know
you. And when you are totally smitten
with her, and she with you, ask her to marry you. Not because she is very efficient or is a whiz at organization,
but because you want to spend the rest of your lives together. You know, like you did with me... Why are you so quiet?"
"Now that I am considering
marriage, I find myself mourning your loss all over again."
"That's got to be the most
illogical thing I have ever heard. We
knew that we wouldn't have more than one hundred years together. And you know that you need a wife. So what if Spock doesn't like her. He's not marrying her. You are.
Go. With my blessing. But promise me that you'll take her for at
least one walk in the moonlight on some gorgeous beach. I don't care what planet. Just do it, promise?"
"I promise."
Sarek looked up from his desk to see
Ki Mendrossen at the door.
"Mendrossen?" he said, puzzled. "I did not summon you." Ki shifted from one foot to the other. Clearly, something was troubling him. "Come in. May I give
you water?"
"No, thank you, sir," he
responded. He paused, searching for the
right words. "Ambassador, has my
service been satisfactory to you?"
Sarek was puzzled.
"Your service has been adequate," the ambassador replied. Ki translated that mentally as Good
job. "Why do you ask?"
Ki held up his hands. "If
I am out of line in my asking, please forgive me," the attaché said. "I have noticed that you seem to be
calling on my assistant more than you are calling on me. May I ask why?"
Sarek repressed the urge to laugh in the man's face. "I am not calling on you because I am
not courting you, Mendrossen," he answered.
Ki's face flushed fiercely.
"Oh," he stammered.
"Oh, my. I had no
idea. Forgive me. I am so embarrassed. Perrin never said a word to me. I thought she was trying to... It doesn't matter. I'll just go." He
turned towards the door to beat a hasty retreat.
"Perrin didn't say anything
because she does not know," Sarek said.
Ki turned back, confused.
"How can she not know that you are courting her?" he
queried. "If I may ask."
Sarek folded his hands upon his desk. "My late wife said that I needed some help in the romance
department," Sarek replied.
"Do you know where I can find beach to walk on in the
moonlight?"
Ki smiled, his eyes twinkling.
"I do indeed."
"Ki, what's going on?"
Perrin asked, suspicious. "Why do
you have that awful smirk? What are you
up to?"
He bowed Perrin out the door.
"Your shuttle awaits you, madam," he replied. "All your questions will be
answered."
"Well, how should I
dress?" she asked, flustered.
"Is this a 'royal' summons or a formal affair? Should I put on my grubbies or what?"
Ki smiled warmly at her.
"You look just fine," he observed. "Shall we?"
Ordinarily, Perrin would hold her ground until she knew all the
facts, but some strange force pushed her out the door and into Fate's hands.
Sarek met her at the shuttle door.
"Ambassador," Perrin
said. "Is there an emergency? Ki wouldn't tell me anything."
Sarek nodded to Ki and took the flight plan from him. "Good work, Mendrossen. Shall we?" he asked, holding out his
hand to Perrin.
She was, well, shocked. She
suddenly felt shy, which was a strange emotion for her. She took his hand meekly, and Sarek helped
her into the craft.
"Have a good trip," Ki
said, giving Perrin his warmest smile.
"Trip?"
Ki was finishing up the last of the
reports and was closing down the office for the evening. He heard a commotion behind him and the door
slammed open. Perrin!
"How could you?"
she demanded.
"How could I what?" he
replied.
"How could you not warn me?”
she asked. Perrin paced in the office
frantically. "He wants to court
me. He wants to marry me!"
Ki looked at her warily.
"And what was your answer?" he asked.
"I would have liked the chance
to change my clothes," she fumed, "to wash my face. Hell, I didn't even have a comb!"
"What did you tell him?"
Ki asked again.
"He took me to a lovely place,
Perrin replied. "There was this
beach, and not one but three moons, all full.
Gorgeous!"
Ki took Perrin by the shoulders and shook her gently. "Are you going to marry him or
not?" he demanded.
Perrin shook her head.
"What do you think I told him?" she answered. "I told him yes!"
Ki picked Perrin up and spun her about. "That is so wonderful, Perrin!" he replied. "I'm so happy for you. For him, too. May you have many--and I do mean many--happy years together. When is the ceremony?"
Perrin shook her head.
"I don't know," she said.
"We haven't made any plans yet.
This happened all so suddenly.
Spock doesn't even know yet."
“Perrin?" Spock answered
in dismay. "You have chosen Perrin
for your new wife?"
Sarek shook his head.
"Why do you continue to find fault with her, my son?" Sarek
replied. "She has done nothing to
give you any reason to doubt her. I
find her to be a very suitable mate for me.
She is intelligent capable,..."
"And very young," Spock
interrupted.
Sarek drew himself up to his full height. "Which insures that she will be my last
mate," he responded. "Are any
of your objections to her based on facts, or all they all emotionally
charged?" Sarek knew that to be an
insult, but no matter. He will not have
his son attacking his choice of wife.
Sarek saw the cold, hard mask slip over his son's features, the one
behind which he had been hiding frequently lately.
"Mother would say that you are
'hell bent' on this decision," Spock said at last.
"And stop quoting your mother
to me," Sarek said, fighting back anger.
"I lived with her much longer than you. She is still with me. She
will always be with me. Can you say the
same?"
"Yes," Spock replied. "But do you have room enough in your
heart for two wives?"
"Do you think my heart so
small?" Sarek answered. Spock
turned away. "Please," Sarek
called, "do not shut me out. I
will always cherish your mother. She meant
more to me than you could ever know.
You know that I need a wife. I
choose Perrin."
Spock lowered his head.
"I have studied my opposition to Perrin," he said very
quietly. "I do not know if it is
based on facts or... not. I just have
this growing unease regarding her. But,
it is your opinion which matters in this case, Father. If you desire to marry her, then I cannot, I
should not stand in your way."
Spock raised his eyes to Sarek.
"I wish you peace in your new life."
Sarek saw his son's brow crease, and he began to breathe
rapidly. Spock tried to turn away, but
Sarek stopped him with a touch. "I
know," he said gently. "When
I first decided to propose to Perrin, I was overwhelmed with fresh sorrow at
Amanda's death. I mourned again. Amanda meant so much to both of us. It is right that we should mourn her
passing, even so many years later."
Sarek patted his son's arm.
"Go home to your own wife and have her comfort you. I will let you know our plans. Will you stand with me at the ceremony?"
Spock nodded, trying to find his voice. "I am honored, Father," he breathed.
"Perrin?" Spock's voice. She turned carefully, trying to avoid tripping over the long hem
of her gown. "May we speak privately?"
he asked.
Perrin did not want to have a confrontation with Spock at her own
wedding, but neither did she want to have it before, or after, for that
matter. She simply didn't want to
confront him at all. "Of
course," she said as graciously as she could, motioning to a hallway at
the villa estates. She watched Spock
look down and try to compose himself.
So, this is difficult for you, too!
"I have examined my motives
these past months," he began, "my misgivings about you. I find no one
thing about you that disturbs me. If my
reaction to you is based on a petty resentment that you are taking my mother's
place, I beg forgiveness."
Perrin was nonplused. She
acknowledged the honest humility in Spock's statement, but underneath, she
sensed a veiled threat. And if it is
based on fact, you will have to answer to me. Preposterous! Now she
was projecting. "Spock," she
replied, "I absolutely cherish your father and wish him no harm. I will try to give him as much love and
devoted care as your mother ever did."
She dared to place a hand on his arm.
"And I hope that we, you and I, can build some kind of rapport as
well."
Spock pulled back from her. "Time will tell," he
breathed.
FIN