By the GOOD TWIN (cat31408@aol.com)
Here are
a few thoughts that Spock had before he left to go to Starfleet. It made us
take out hanky or two. GOOD TWIN thought that you might enjoy it. Feedback is
appreciated.
Every time I write in my journal and I see this blue ribbon, I think of you.
It is the exact color of your eyes. Those vivid blue eyes. My first memory of
you and seeing those eyes was after I was born and my vision cleared. The
first thing I saw those warm reassuring blue eyes that welcomed me into the
frightening new world of strange sounds and colors. Once I saw those blue eyes
then I wasn't frightened anymore.
I know that you think that I don't love you, but I do. I remember taking my
first steps unafraid, because I knew that you would not let me fall.
I remember when it came time for me to enter school, how you called me back to
you and you gave me this blue ribbon and told me to put it away in my pocket
and whenever I missed you to just reach into my pocket and I would not be
alone.
You don't know how many times throughout my years in school I rubbed that blue
ribbon. It always gave me a sense of tranquility.
I remember that day when I had to go meet T'Pring and how the night before when
I couldn't sleep how you slipped away from Father and came into my room. You stood over my bed for a long time then
you leaned and brushed my bangs back and kissed my forehead. I heard you
whisper. " I'll stand by you my son." You thought that I was asleep,
but those words helped me to go to sleep that night. I rubbed that blue ribbon
that I kept under my pillow.
I remember the worst day of my life, when I told Father that I had joined
Starfleet. Oh Mother, I wasn't leaving
you and your love. I just had to spend
my wings and fly just like you always encouraged me too. Don't think I didn't
know that I caused you great pain that day. As I put the straps of my bags on
my shoulder and took that walk out the door of the only place I had ever called
home.
I could hear the sound of your outstretched arms dropping to your sides. I
could hear the sounds of your sobbing as Father told you to come inside. I
could hear you whisper, "I hope he didn't forget the blue ribbon."
Even though you couldn't see it because my back was to you, there were tears
streaming down my face as stiffened my shoulders and walked away.
As I took each step my fingers were wrapped around that blue ribbon you gave me
so long ago. Throughout all my journeys I still have that blue ribbon that you
gave me so long ago.
END