The Disclaimers: Star Trek in all its forms and series belongs to Gene Roddenberry and the corporations. I am just borrowing them for this fan fiction and mean no disrespect nor am I making a profit on the work.

This is a Snippet in the IDIC Universe. A brief view of how Amanda was able to be with Sarek. Dr. McCoy makes a startling discovery when he is testing Spock's blood to save Sarek in Journey to Babel. AU because it definitely plays with Cannon a little. If you have not read IDIC New Beginnings this will not make a lot of sense.

By Lisa AKA Fire Star

Archive: Selek Yes anyone else let me know where.

A/N :Thoughts and Telepathy in Italics

Spell checked but not betaed read at your own risk.

IDIC-It is all in the Genes-JTB

Sarek's POV

Sarek's Personal Log

Begin Log-

I am being released from Sickbay today. I admit to being most gratified at that fact. I have missed being with she. I know that my son believes that I do not need his mother. (Pause)

I often find that is it hard for me to express my "Feelings for Amanda" .She is as always correct that I have been a poor example to Spock. I never intended him to believe that there was no connection between a husband and his wife. (Pause)  I just did not wish to disappoint my son. I wanted him to see me as the perfect Vulcan. The irony is that I am truly a poor example. A truly wise father would have found a way to support his son's choices. Now we are locked into a battle of wills that we cannot free ourselves from. My point is and always has been logical. (Pause) Spock cannot and should never be risked. It is not that he is simply my son. A son who has made me very proud. No he is more and always has been the key to the future. Spock is the future of not only Vulcan but the Federation itself. Spock is proof of IDIC if only he could understand.

If only... Perhaps I should have tried for a second child. Perhaps then Spock would not feel so compelled to prove himself as a Vulcan. However after Amanda lost our daughter she was so ill. How could I risk her? She is my very heart and Soul. If I ever lose her...

I must stop being so emotional it is hardly something to concern myself with. If the events of the past days have shown me nothing else it is that I am as likely to die first as she. (Pause)

I wonder if it is illogical to wish that I go first? Yes it is not logical for my passing would surely end my beloved's life. I sensed her fear her terror at my weakness. I could tell she strained to send me her strength. If I die we are so connected that I think she will follow me. I could never wish this. Yet how could I be able to go on without her? I would surely wish to follow her. Logic has no place with love and I do so love Amanda.  I love her and Spock enough to anger them with my over protection. I wonder if all Vulcan males feel so helpless in regard to their family? (Pause)

I will do all I can to keep them both safe. I believe that Amanda is correct we must trust Leonard McCoy.  His family has been an allied house for years. It seems it is time to renew those bonds. (Pause) He shall be needed to keep Spock safe. So I shall see he and this ship get all the supplies and support they need. A specialist shall be arranged. (Pause)

Also if he is to do this for my family I believe I shall owe him support as well. My research shows he has a daughter. She is struggling on Earth. (Pause) I believe it is time for me to take action there. She is a fine woman and she could use a mate. I believe Rordans' son Rory is looking for a mate. He will make a perfect match and the young lady will be protected and cared for. I will arrange for them to meet at once. In the event that this is not sufficient I do believe a job offer is needed. Daniel said the home farms needs a manager. Jo Anna McCoy is a perfect match for the position. I believe I will have Daniel offer her the job in Carbon Creek. It will allow us to ensure she is well cared for and safe. It will also facilitate the courtship with Rory. Yes that will be a good way to ensure we honor our obligation to Dr. McCoy. I am saddened that we failed to protect him properly. However we will not fail his daughter. Besides it would be most pleasing to Amanda to have him become family even if only in a distant connection. Perhaps she will be more forgiving then.

Ah my wife comes to escort me to our quarters. I shall end this log for now. I can only hope my actins please her. I would not wish our bond to suffer for my failure to warn her of my illness.

End Log